[Intro]
Yeah
Can you hear me through the rust
Through the rust, through the (dust)
I been talkin’ to the ceiling fan, it just shrug
Static in my chest when I wake up, that’s us
You don’t pick your poison, it pick you, that’s trust
Heart in a headlock, teeth in my tongue
Every word come out tastein’ like blood
Scroll ‘til the sunrise, face on the glass
Tryna outrun what already passed
Yeah, yeah
Face on the glass
Tryna outrun what already passed
(What already passed)
[Verse 1]
Used to write my name in the fog on the window
Wonder how it feel just to not be in limbo
Whole life paused on a half-charged phone
New day, same ache, same ringtone
Friends get married, get kids, get gone
I get anxious, get high, get stoned
Tryna turn this ache into somethin’ I own
But the pain keep rentin’ out a room in my bones
Mom call, say she barely ever see me smile now
I just make a joke, change the topic, then I dial out
Switch tabs, same stress, different layout
Every little thought turn a fast-food takeout
Cold in the bag, but I still eat it anyway
Love in a tag, but they scroll past it every day
Post another picture, try to crop out the evidence
Eyes red raw, but I angle out the heaviness
I been lookin’ in the mirror like, “Who that?”
Old me in the corner with a durag
New me on the floor in a ski mask
Hide from the world and myself when it speed past
Overthink, under-sleep, it’s a free-fall
Say I’m fine, say I’m fine in the group call
Turn the mic off, let the tears hit the desk
Listen to the echoes of a “you’ll be okay” text
You say, “Hit me up if you really ever need me”
But the moment that I do, it get weird, it get sleepy
You say, “Anytime,” but the schedule got a limit
Keep my crash quiet so you never gotta witness
I been takin’ long showers ‘cause the water drown the cries out
Head on the tile, let the time run the lights out
If I disappear, would you notice in the feed?
Or you only miss me when you runnin’ out of memes?
Covered up the scars with some new tattoos
Little cartoons, but they carry bad news
Every color line is a mile of my youth
Every healed scab is a lie turned truth
I been usin’ dark jokes just to feel like I belong
Everybody laugh, never ask what’s wrong
I say “I’m good,” you say “You strong”
But you never seen me fall apart after this song
Got a soft spot for the people that leave
‘Cause I get ‘em, yeah, I know what they need
Sometimes you just wanna drive ‘til the tank on E
No plan, just air and a passenger seat
But I’m still here, breath stuck in my teeth
Nightmares wake me, they don’t let me breathe
I don’t fear death, I just fear that my name
Gon’ vanish in a week like a broke video game
So I talk to the shadow on my wall like a roommate
Tell it all the secrets that I hide from my true face
If I ever heal, would it still be me?
Or am I just the hurt in a hoodie and a beat?
You say it get better, you say give it time
I gave it my twenties, it still take my mind
Every new day is a rerun scene
Same slow drip from a busted IV
[Chorus]
I got glass in my throat when I say “I’m fine”
Every word cut deep on the way outside
You see a cool lil post, I see a landslide
Holdin’ on, holdin’ on by a thin white line
If I scream your name, would you turn that head?
Or you let me fade back into your thread?
You say “hit me