[Intro]
(yeah)
Voice in my head, so loud
Can’t breathe, can’t sleep, can’t drown it out
Scrolling through my phone in the dark of the room
Got ghosts in my chest and they all sound like you
I been
Pacing in circles on this dirty floor
Same four walls, same old war
Every little thought turn razor blade truth
Every little joke cut straight to the root
I got
Photos turned face down on my desk
Name on my tongue that I don’t dare text
Laugh from the past in the back of my mind
Why the hell you still here if you left me behind?
(you left me behind)
My reflection look strange in the bathroom glass
Eyes red, heart black, time don’t pass
If pain had a playlist, it’d loop this night
If love had a grave, it’d be buried in my pride
[Verse 1]
Heart on read
Messages unsent
Typing, erasing
Never hit send
Friends hit call
I let it ring out
Can’t explain the storm
So I just shut down
Every memory
Got a sharp little edge
Caught on your name
Like a hook in my chest
You said “forever”
Then you took three steps
Now forever just feel
Like a side effect
[Chorus]
I don’t wanna feel like this
But I do, yeah I do, yeah I do
Every road I take
Just leads back to you
I’ve been burning all our Polaroids
Still your shadow creeping through my room
I don’t wanna feel like this
But I do, yeah I do, over you
[Verse 2]
Cup half full
But the pills all gone
Sleep won’t come
When the thoughts this strong
Talk to the ceiling
Like it talk back
Pray for a sign
Get silence, black
Saw you last week
You ain’t even look twice
You moved on clean
I’m stuck in the ice
You’re a closed book
I still read every line
Bookmark stuck
On the worst goodbye
[Chorus]
I don’t wanna feel like this
But I do, yeah I do, yeah I do
Every road I take
Just leads back to you
I’ve been burning all our Polaroids
Still your shadow creeping through my room
I don’t wanna feel like this
But I do, yeah I do, over you
[Bridge]
Maybe I’m addicted
To the way it hurt
Picking at the scab
Making it worse
If healing mean
Letting you go
Then why my heartbeat
Spell out your name slow? (your name slow)
[Chorus]
I don’t wanna feel like this
But I do, yeah I do, yeah I do
Every road I take
Just leads back to you
I’ve been burning all our Polaroids
Still your shadow creeping through my room
I don’t wanna feel like this
But I do, yeah I do, over you