I didn’t ask anymore

I was four when you left me
I didn’t know or understand
what was happening
cramped in a car with my brothers
from houston to Missouri
afraid, hugging that teddy bear
that someone gave me for the ride

I learned to live without you
what a terrible thing to do
But i was just a lonely little boy
Didn’t know how to miss you
I’m sure I asked a thousand times
Where is my mom
But after a thousand cries
I didn’t ask anymore
I didn’t ask anymore

every birthday on the farm
I wondered where you were
sometimes a card would come
but then there were no more
I grew and tried to cope
with that emptiness inside
I wondered why you didn’t come
I wondered if you tried

I learned to live without you
what a terrible thing to do
But i was just a lonely little boy
Didn’t know how to miss you
I’m sure I asked a thousand times
Where is my mom
But after a thousand cries
I didn’t ask anymore
I didn’t ask anymore

When I went off to college
I had a change of heart
I wrote a little letter
at least it was a start
You said that you were sorry
That that was long ago
But deep within my heart
I couldn’t let it go

I learned to live without you
what a terrible thing to do
But i was just a lonely little boy
Didn’t know how to miss you
I’m sure I asked a thousand times
Where is my mom
But after a thousand cries
I didn’t ask anymore
I didn’t ask anymore

A sad song about a boy who lost his mom, plaintive, Emotional, male voice