(Hook)
I’m losin’ my mind and it’s gettin’ violent
Screams in my skull but my mouth stay silent
They say I don’t care — that’s a lie they sell
I’ve been fightin’ my own private hell
Don’t wanna be here but I’m still alive
Every day they push, try to split, divide
One breath from the edge, yeah I walk that line
I don't know how much i can take this time.
(Verse 1)
Desk lamp glow and the house dead quiet
Head so loud I just wanna riot
Bills like bricks stackin’ up on my chest
World on my back, no time to rest
They say I’m distant, say I don’t feel
Like I ain’t bleedin’ tryin’ to make this real
Every talk turn war, every word a blade
Every ounce of effort just slowly fade
I’m the villain in a story I ain’t even write
Fightin’ for my family every single night
Keep my tears low, let ‘em hit the floor
Wipe ‘em quick — can’t afford no more
Feel my sanity crack in waves
Still dig deep like I’m buildin’ graves
They push and they pull till I split inside
But I swallow the storm and let it ride
(Hook)
(Verse 2)
Wake up tired like I never slept
Promises made that I never kept
Not ‘cause I’m heartless — I’m overloaded
Every emotion corroded, exploded
“You don’t care” still echo in loops
While I’m breakin’ my back just holdin’ the roof
Overtime shifts, overtime pain
Overtime tryna stay sane
Everybody quick just to pick my flaws
Nobody see what this pressure costs
I ain’t perfect, I know that’s fact
But I never once turned my back
Nights at the desk with my face in my hands
Tryna figure out how much more I can stand
I ask myself how much more I can bend
Before the man in the mirror don’t know me again
(Hook)
(Verse 3)
I’m tired of actin’ like I’m made of steel
Truth is I don’t even know what I feel
Just pressure in my chest, static in my brain
Tryna scream but I just swallow pain
They don’t see the cracks behind my eyes
Or the nights I sit there and just cry
They don’t hear me beg God for a sign
Or ask how much longer I got in this fight
I don’t wanna die… I just want peace
Want the noise in my head to cease
Want one day where I don’t feel wrong
Want the strength just to hold on strong
‘Cause if I fall, who teaches my sons?
If I break, what have I done?
I’m hangin’ by threads, barely breathin’ in—
Please… don’t let me break… not again…
(Hook)(repeat/fade out)
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