Fading

I wake up in the quiet, but it’s screaming in my mind

Every little thought feels like it’s cutting me inside

Sunlight through the window, but it never seems to stay

It touches all the darkness, then it slowly fades away

I trace the cracks in everything I used to recognize

Now every piece of me just feels like something I disguise

I try to hold a feeling, but it slips right through my hands

Like I was never meant to understand

And I’m sinking like a stone in the deep end

Every breath feels like a weekend

I can’t escape the weight I carry

Even when I close my eyes

I’m a fading echo in the dark tonight

Calling out but no one hears me cry

Every piece of me just drifts away

Like I was never meant to stay

I tried to find a way to feel alive

But hope just slips right through me every time

Now I’m lost inside the in-between

Of who I was and what I’ll never be

Every smile feels borrowed, like it’s not really mine

Like I’m playing someone else just to pass the time

People say it’s temporary, it’ll all be fine

But they don’t see the way I’m barely getting by

I hear their voices fading like a distant melody

While my thoughts are getting louder, pulling me beneath

And I’m reaching out for something I can’t even see

But it never reaches back for me

And I’m drifting further out to nowhere

Every heartbeat’s just a cold stare

I’m surrounded, but I’m empty

Like I vanished in plain sight

I’m a fading echo in the dark tonight

Calling out but no one hears me cry

Every piece of me just drifts away

Like I was never meant to stay

I tried to find a way to feel alive

But hope just slips right through me every time

Now I’m lost inside the in-between

Of who I was and what I’ll never be

Yeah…

Every night I’m lying wide awake, staring at the ceiling

Tryna find a reason just to justify the feeling

Like I’m stuck inside a loop I never asked to repeat

Every step I take just brings me back to the same street

And I’m tired of the voices in my head telling lies

Say I’m never gonna make it, I should stop even trying

But a part of me is fighting even when I feel numb

Like a spark in the dark saying “don’t you give up”

But it’s fading… yeah it’s fading…

I can feel it slipping out my hands

If I lose it… if I break down…

Would they even understand?

If I disappear into the night…

Would the world even notice I’m gone?

I’ve been holding onto nothing…

For so long… for so long…

I’m a fading echo in the dark tonight

But a piece of me still wants to fight

Even if I’m barely holding on

Even if the light is almost gone

I tried to find a way to feel alive

And maybe there’s a chance I’ll be alright

Though I’m lost inside the in-between

I’m still more than what they see in me

I’m not gone… not yet…

Even if I’m close to it…

Just a spark… just