When I’m Angry

I keep them locked beneath my skin,

They whisper where the silence ends.

I wear a smile, I play pretend,

But I know they’re waiting there again.

Every word I never said,

Turns into a voice inside my head.

I try to breathe, I try to hide,

But something darker comes alive.

And I can feel them crawling up,

When I’ve had enough, when I’ve had enough.

My heart goes cold, my hands start shaking,

All the things I buried start awakening.

When I’m angry, my demons come out,

They’re screaming louder than my own voice now.

I try to fight them, but they know my name,

They turn my fire into flames.

When I’m angry, I become someone else,

A stranger I don’t even recognize myself.

I hold them down until I lose control,

And every demon wants my soul.

I never meant to hurt the ones

Who stayed when I was coming undone.

But rage can make a home inside,

And love gets lost when I lose the fight.

I see the damage when it’s done,

The words I wish I could outrun.

I say I’m fine, but deep below,

There’s something I don’t want to know.

And I can feel them crawling up,

When I’ve had enough, when I’ve had enough.

My heart goes cold, my hands start shaking,

All the things I buried start awakening.

When I’m angry, my demons come out,

They’re screaming louder than my own voice now.

I try to fight them, but they know my name,

They turn my fire into flames.

When I’m angry, I become someone else,

A stranger I don’t even recognize myself.

I hold them down until I lose control,

And every demon wants my soul.

Maybe I’m not evil, maybe I’m just hurt,

Maybe all this anger is a cry beneath the dirt.

If I let the darkness speak,

Will it finally set me free?

When I’m angry, my demons come out,

But maybe they’re just parts of me crying out.

I’ve been fighting shadows I was scared to face,

Now I’m learning how to live with every trace.

When I’m angry, I become someone else,

But I’m still trying to find my way back to myself.

The demons scream, but I won’t let them win,

I’m more than all the darkness underneath my skin.