Not Enough Whiskey

I know I wasn’t always fair

I had to sit down in that chair

and talk and convince myself

that someone else

was more capable of your love

it killed me inside

to know that I hurt you and I can’t lie

about the way I treated you

we thought about forever and

what that would be

looked like a wife and two kids to me

a backyard where our dog would run

while you catch a tan and I work in the sun

nothing else in this world that meant so much to me

but since I did me and let you be

there’s just not enough whiskey

that’ll set me free

A facebook memory popped up

it read three years ago today

but it led me to see

that we lost Aunt Kelly

I couldn’t bear the news

how could someone so precious we lose

sometimes I wish the way we used to

Think about forever and

what that would be

looked like a wife and two kids to me

a backyard where our dog would run

while you catch a tan and I work in the sun

nothing else in this world that meant so much to me

but since I did me and let you be

there’s just not enough whiskey

that’ll set me free

I go on everyday

thinking of the right words to say

hoping one day you’ll find the love

to forgive me

I can’t take back what is done

and between you and me

there’s no place left for me to run

I hope you know you’re still the one

we thought about forever and

what that would be

looked like a wife and two kids to me

a backyard where our dog would run

while you catch a tan and I work in the sun

nothing else in this world that meant so much to me

but since I did me and let you be

there’s just not enough whiskey

that’ll set me free