(Intro)
Empty kitchen, empty bed
Her ghost still screaming in my head
Got a mouth full of metal taste
And a life I can’t replace
BLEGH!
(Verse 1)
I stare at the drawer like it’s calling my name
One cold bite gonna end this pain
‘Cause eating a bullet feels easier now
Than waking up alone somehow
Everybody saying “you’ll be alright”
But they ain’t alone every damn night
They don’t know what she meant to me
She was the air that let me breathe
Now the house got no heartbeat
Just memories and dead dreams
TV glow and broken sleep
I’m drowning where the silence creeps
(Pre-Chorus)
And I know…
She loved me more than words could say
That’s the reason I still stay
(Chorus)
I wanna eat a bullet ‘cause it’s all I got left to eat
Starving in the wreckage of these memories
But I can’t pull the trigger, can’t let myself go
Too many people love me even if they don’t know
How deep this cut goes
How loud this pain screams
How every single night
She still lives in my dreams
BLEGH!
(Verse 2)
Mom says pray and my friends say heal
Like scars disappear if you fake what you feel
Every word just burns my skin
Nobody gets the war within
I still hear her laugh in the halls
Still see our shadows on the walls
And maybe she’s gone, maybe she’s not
Maybe love don’t die when hearts get shot
(Breakdown)
YOU DON’T KNOW
WHAT SHE MEANS TO ME
THIS PAIN AIN’T SOMETHING
YOU CAN SEE
EMPTY STOMACH
EMPTY SOUL
TRYING NOT TO LOSE CONTROL
BLEGH!
(Final Chorus)
I wanted the end, wanted out so bad
Wanted one last meal from the pain I had
But her voice still echoes inside my chest
And the ones who love me deserve my best
So I keep breathing though it hurts to live
Holding onto every piece she gave
Maybe surviving is my revenge
Maybe broken hearts still bend
BLEGH!
