Messed up

yeah… yeah…

22nd of May… you and I… you and I…

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22nd of May, you and I, you and I

still remember your birthday, don’t know why

27th September, I drew you and me

you forgot everything, but it’s stuck in me

23rd November, you needed space

said “just a breather” then you changed

now you don’t talk, now you don’t stay

now it’s just me replaying days

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sometimes I look at our texts…

sometimes I wonder if you do too

(you probably don’t… you probably don’t…)

we were stuck like glue… like glue… like glue…

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I hate you, but I miss you

you don’t understand

you got me all messed up

slipping through my hands

messed up

broken and shit

messed up, messed up

you ruined my head

you ruined my mind

I thought you were kind

I’m messed up

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you changed on me, didn’t say why

one day close, next day goodbye

felt so real, thought it would last

now I’m just stuck inside the past

you and her, yeah I can see

that used to be you and me

same shit, just different name

guess to you it’s just a game

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do you miss me?

(do you?)

or did you already move on?

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I hate you, but I miss you

you don’t understand

you got me all messed up

don’t know who I am

messed up

broken and shit

messed up, messed up

you fucked my head

you twisted my mind

I thought you were mine

I’m messed up

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22nd of March… new start, I guess

tryna get rid of this heaviness

you left in my chest

won’t let me rest

you’re a jinx…

an unlucky weight in my heart

get out… get out… get out…

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I hate you…

I miss you…

messed up…

not forever…

…just right now