PAIN

There is fire in my Heart

A burning sensation in my solo

I ache from a place no one can ever reach to save me

I Hurt from a place I cant even save myself from

The emptiness That I carry is deeper than

Than any physical wound

I am damaged beyond measures

In drought for Happiness

This casket That I carry

Is the reason for my shame

I am done begging the universe for help

I am done pleading for you to accept me or love me

Yes I díd not meet your expectations

Yes I am a useless waste of Space and time

Yes I am good for nothing Just like my father

Yes I don't make the right choices

Yes I am bitch

Yes I am not the favourite Child

Yes I don't meet family standards

I get It

And It bothers me

I Know I am Hard to love

I Know I have flaws no one wants to work with

I get It you are ashamed to call me yours

Don't you think I deserve to be love geninely and not just tolerated?

I don't care about your money

I am not interested in what you have to give to me

I Just want a Mother That loves me

Is That too much to Ask?

A love without judgement

A love without hate

A love I do not have to question

Without shade, Without shame,

Most People yern for material things

I Just want peace

I Just want a home without hate

If I die tomorrow

May your hate not be on my shoulders

May the presence of my birth no longer bring you tears

I am sorry for my existence in your life

But I wish to Free myself from this pain

I forgive you

And I forgive myself for fighting for your love

I have released my anger and hope the universe finds love and peace for me even in the shadows

May you find peace,love and forgiveness

Úntil we meet again.

Indestructible Dark