There is fire in my Heart
A burning sensation in my solo
I ache from a place no one can ever reach to save me
I Hurt from a place I cant even save myself from
The emptiness That I carry is deeper than
Than any physical wound
I am damaged beyond measures
In drought for Happiness
This casket That I carry
Is the reason for my shame
I am done begging the universe for help
I am done pleading for you to accept me or love me
Yes I díd not meet your expectations
Yes I am a useless waste of Space and time
Yes I am good for nothing Just like my father
Yes I don't make the right choices
Yes I am bitch
Yes I am not the favourite Child
Yes I don't meet family standards
I get It
And It bothers me
I Know I am Hard to love
I Know I have flaws no one wants to work with
I get It you are ashamed to call me yours
Don't you think I deserve to be love geninely and not just tolerated?
I don't care about your money
I am not interested in what you have to give to me
I Just want a Mother That loves me
Is That too much to Ask?
A love without judgement
A love without hate
A love I do not have to question
Without shade, Without shame,
Most People yern for material things
I Just want peace
I Just want a home without hate
If I die tomorrow
May your hate not be on my shoulders
May the presence of my birth no longer bring you tears
I am sorry for my existence in your life
But I wish to Free myself from this pain
I forgive you
And I forgive myself for fighting for your love
I have released my anger and hope the universe finds love and peace for me even in the shadows
May you find peace,love and forgiveness
Úntil we meet again.
Indestructible Dark