[Verse 1]
I overwater every garden
Wonder why the flowers drown
I give forever in a moment
Then I hate this hollow town
They call me "too much
" "too open"
Like my heart’s some kind of crime
I laugh it off at the party
Check the exits every time
[Pre-Chorus]
I wanna dance
Til my head stops spinning
I wanna vanish
Right as it’s beginning
All of these people
None of them see it
How I burn out
Just to feel needed
[Chorus]
I love too much
It cuts me open
Every touch just leaves me swollen
I wanna be happy
I swear I do
But I feel most honest in an empty room
I’m loud in your arms
Then I disappear
I’m so alive
When nobody’s here
I love too much
My favorite doom
And I still sleep best in an empty room
[Verse 2]
I text you back in a second
Then go quiet for a week
I pour my truths on your shoulder
Then pretend I’m hard to reach
You say I’m "magic
" say I’m "maddening"
Like I’m some unsolvable spell
I’m just a girl who hates the silence
Til it’s shared with someone else
[Pre-Chorus]
I wanna stay
Til the lights stop shaking
I wanna leave
Right when hearts start breaking
Smile in your kitchen
Cry in your stairwell
Say that I’m fine
Hide it too well
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
[low vocal register] Maybe I was built lopsided
One wing fire
One wing ice
Hold me close
Then let me vanish
Love me wrong and love me twice
[whispered vocals] I’m not broken
Just divided
Half of me crowdsurf
Half of me private
[crescendo] If you can’t hold
All my phases
I’ll keep my joy
In hidden places
[Chorus]