Rethinking

Late at night and I can’t sleep

Tossing and turning, counting me

Every thought feels like a fight

In the quiet of the night

Living and learning, losing time

Trying to read between the lines

I don’t know what’s wrong or right

I just know I’m not alright

I’ve been staring at the ceiling

With my doubts on repeat

I’ve been rethinking everything in my life

Maybe someday it’ll all make sense in time

Rethinking myself, rethinking my wealth

Rethinking everything I believe

Rethinking my future, if it’s meant to be

If all of this is really meant for me

And that scares me…

Yeah, it scares me

I’m sorry I don’t mean to be this way

I’m just afraid you’ll walk away

I got walls I don’t know how to break

I got fears I don’t know how to say

I got problems, I’m not perfect

Some days I don’t feel worth it

I’m just tired of pretending

That I’m stronger than I am

Every smile feels borrowed

Every laugh feels thin

I’ve been rethinking everything in my life

Maybe someday it’ll all make sense in time

Rethinking myself, rethinking my wealth

Rethinking everything I believe

Rethinking my future, if it’s meant to be

If all of this is really meant for me

And that scares me…

Yeah, it scares me

Maybe I don’t need all the answers

Maybe I just need to stay

Maybe loving me is harder

Than walking away

But I’m still here, still breathing

Still hoping you see me

I’m still rethinking who I am

But I’m trying the best that I can

If I’m broken, if I’m weak

Please don’t leave me incomplete

I’m still rethinking everything

But I don’t wanna do it alone

So if you’re here… just stay

And I’ll find my way home