(Verse 1)
He said “Don’t tell your mom,”
Like that made it okay.
Like secrets only rot
When you say them out loud.
And she smiled at me sideways,
With that guilt in her teeth—
Like I was too dumb to notice,
Like I didn’t hear things beneath.
(Pre-Chorus)
So I dug a little deeper,
Found where the lies collect.
Buried barrels full of silence
Right beneath the steps.
(Chorus)
There’s 55 gallons of cyanide
Sleeping under the street.
And I’m not saying I’ll use it,
But I know how deep it seeps.
If you twist the knife again,
Don’t be shocked by the taste—
You mixed the poison,
I just learned where it’s placed.
(Verse 2)
She used to wear my hoodie,
Now she wears his cologne.
And I drink from the tap
Knowing what I’ve stashed below.
He talks like he owns the place,
Like he rebuilt me from ash—
But I remember every moment
He made me feel like trash.
(Pre-Chorus)
I’m not unstable, I’m observant,
I’m not crazy, I’m aware.
I just keep a contingency plan
For people who never care.
(Chorus)
There’s 55 gallons of cyanide
Cooled beneath my floor.
For every time you laughed
While I stared at the door.
I’m not a monster,
Just a backup plan in skin—
And if you light this fuse,
You won’t see me again.
(Bridge – spoken/sung, slow burn)
This town’s built on betrayal,
The water lines don’t lie.
And I’ve memorized the map
Of where I’d say goodbye.
They think it’s about chaos,
But it’s always been about truth.
You let him take everything—
This is all I have to lose.
(Final Chorus – loud, fast, falling apart)
There’s 55 gallons of cyanide
And no one else to blame.
You taught me what love looks like
When it’s dripping with shame.
So I won’t pull the lever,
Not unless I break—
But if I do, just know:
It was never a mistake.
(Outro – whispered)
You turned the tap…
I just watched it spread.
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