Dead weight

I wake up feelin’ fucked, like the world’s on my chest  
Eyes heavy, soul hollow, no peace, no rest  
Mom playin’ puppet master, strings in my spine  
Smile on her face while she gaslight mine  

She say “I love you,” but it’s all control  
Twistin’ my thoughts, diggin’ deep in my soul  
Guilt-trippin’ bitch, got me second guessin’  
Every move I make feel like a fuckin’ confession  

She cry when I fight back, play the victim role  
But she built this hell, she carved the hole  
Raised me on shame, fed me with fear  
Now I’m stuck in this loop, year after year  

Dad try to help, but he don’t get shit  
Talkin’ like a therapist, I’m tryna not quit  
He say “you’re strong,” I say “I’m tired as fuck”  
He throw me lifelines, but I’m already stuck  

He don’t see the nights I’m curled on the floor  
Feelin’ like death knockin’ at my door  
He don’t hear the voices, the panic, the dread  
He just see a son with a messed-up head  

I ain’t mad at him, he just don’t understand  
Tryna fix a broken boy with a steady hand  
But I’m cracked, I’m shattered, I’m barely breathin’  
Every smile I fake feels like I’m teasin’  

I’m tired, motherfucker, down to the bone  
Feelin’ like I’m dyin’ but I’m still alone  
No sleep, no peace, just pain on repeat  
And a fake-ass grin when I walk down the street  

I’m tired of the lies, tired of the game  
Tired of bein’ blamed, tired of the shame  
Tired of the “you’ll be fine,” tired of the mask  
Tired of pretendin’ I’m up to the task  

I write these bars ‘cause talkin’ ain’t safe  
Every word a wound, every rhyme a scrape  
I bleed on the beat, I scream in the verse  
I curse ‘cause silence just makes it worse  

I ain’t lookin’ for pity, I ain’t beggin’ for grace  
I just need a fuckin’ break from this place  
So I spit this shit, raw and unfiltered  
Truth in my lungs, pain never wilted  

I’m the boy with the scars, the rage, the regret  
The one they forgot, the one they neglect  
But I ain’t just a victim, I’m the voice in the storm  
I’m the rapper, the wreckage, the pain reborn  

So when you hear this track and feel the weight  
Know it ain’t fiction, it’s my fuckin’ fate  
I’m the kid they broke, the soul they bent  
But I turned that shit into bars I vent  

I’m the boy, the rapper, the ghost in the pen  
Spittin’ truth ‘til I feel whole again  
And if you feel lost, if you feel this pain  
Just know you ain’t alone in the fuckin’ rain.

rap, hip hop, emo rap, dark rap, dark trap, emo