Dead weight

I wake up feelin’ fucked, like the world’s on my chest

Eyes heavy, soul hollow, no peace, no rest

Mom playin’ puppet master, strings in my spine

Smile on her face while she gaslight mine

She say “I love you,” but it’s all control

Twistin’ my thoughts, diggin’ deep in my soul

Guilt-trippin’ bitch, got me second guessin’

Every move I make feel like a fuckin’ confession

She cry when I fight back, play the victim role

But she built this hell, she carved the hole

Raised me on shame, fed me with fear

Now I’m stuck in this loop, year after year

Dad try to help, but he don’t get shit

Talkin’ like a therapist, I’m tryna not quit

He say “you’re strong,” I say “I’m tired as fuck”

He throw me lifelines, but I’m already stuck

He don’t see the nights I’m curled on the floor

Feelin’ like death knockin’ at my door

He don’t hear the voices, the panic, the dread

He just see a son with a messed-up head

I ain’t mad at him, he just don’t understand

Tryna fix a broken boy with a steady hand

But I’m cracked, I’m shattered, I’m barely breathin’

Every smile I fake feels like I’m teasin’

I’m tired, motherfucker, down to the bone

Feelin’ like I’m dyin’ but I’m still alone

No sleep, no peace, just pain on repeat

And a fake-ass grin when I walk down the street

I’m tired of the lies, tired of the game

Tired of bein’ blamed, tired of the shame

Tired of the “you’ll be fine,” tired of the mask

Tired of pretendin’ I’m up to the task

I write these bars ‘cause talkin’ ain’t safe

Every word a wound, every rhyme a scrape

I bleed on the beat, I scream in the verse

I curse ‘cause silence just makes it worse

I ain’t lookin’ for pity, I ain’t beggin’ for grace

I just need a fuckin’ break from this place

So I spit this shit, raw and unfiltered

Truth in my lungs, pain never wilted

I’m the boy with the scars, the rage, the regret

The one they forgot, the one they neglect

But I ain’t just a victim, I’m the voice in the storm

I’m the rapper, the wreckage, the pain reborn

So when you hear this track and feel the weight

Know it ain’t fiction, it’s my fuckin’ fate

I’m the kid they broke, the soul they bent

But I turned that shit into bars I vent

I’m the boy, the rapper, the ghost in the pen

Spittin’ truth ‘til I feel whole again

And if you feel lost, if you feel this pain

Just know you ain’t alone in the fuckin’ rain.