Forever

I need my forever . Not my right now. I wasted so much time and so much energy on the wrong ones. So much hurt I had to endure . I could have been happy with another . Please God no more pain . I can't take anymore let downs. I love to deeply . The pain goes deep.

My heart has so many scars. I could not stand another heartbreak . I'd rather stay alone. I'm not sure my heart will ever heal. Has been broken far to many times. It's not me it's them. My heart always feels to much. Just when I think It feels better. It get broken again . It feels like the sadness never ends .

My heart needs love. I'll never try again . Not worth the pain. I'm not living. I'm only existing. I don't want to hurt anymore. I don't know how to love anymore. Something always gets in the way . I need my forever.