Title: Secret Garden (Weeding You Out)
[Intro] (Mmm... yeah) (I had to escape... I had to run.) They told me to weed out the secret sin.
I didn't realize... that meant you.
(Listen close now) [Verse 1] It's been a while since we talked, since the middle of June
I drive past your place now under the light of the moon
They're doing road work on 11/15, tearing up the street
Just like I had to tear up the ground beneath my feet
I saw your mother at Giant a couple weeks ago, she was still so kind
I wanted to tell you, wanted to speak, but had to leave it behind
I hate how things ended, but six months of you beat the chaos and fear
I was pouring out my soul, settling for breadcrumbs while standing near!
[Pre-Chorus] I sat in the pew on vacation, heard the pastor start to preach
Talking 'bout the secret sins that stay out of reach
He said, "Secret sin will suffocate your life in God!"
And I realized I was sinking in the very same sod
Eight years in a situationship, now repeating the mark
You and me unequally yoked, hiding in the dark!
[Chorus] I'm weeding out the garden! I'm pulling up the roots!
I'm done with the shadows and the forbidden fruits!
No one knew about us, we kept it all concealed!
But God sees everything out in the open field!
I wanted to get out of my skin, I wanted an escape!
But I won't trade my soul for a temporary shape!
I'm weeding out the garden! (Yeah, I'm pulling it out!) Washing away the sin, washing away the doubt!
[Verse 2] Now they're spreading wild lies, saying I was fired for drugs
When I'm an exemplary worker, rising above all the thugs!
Never fired in my life, I keep my record clean
And I won't let your ex dictate what my boundaries mean
He booked a venue five months out around the holiday
Trying to control my family, but I told him NO today!
I'm done with the threats, done bowing down to the noise
I'm protecting my peace and protecting my boys!
[Verse 3] I still remember that morning, coming over so early at dawn
When you prayed over us, and the heavy world was gone
I looked at you exposed, reading stories that I kept closed.
Why couldn't you just choose me? No one ever chooses me...
Sitting in the silence, wondering how this came to be.
If you couldn't fight for me, I had to let you go
Taking back my worth from the chaos down below!
[Chorus] I'm weeding out the garden! I'm pulling up the roots!
I'm done with the shadows and the forbidden fruits!
No one knew about us, we kept it all concealed!
But God sees everything out in the open field!
I wanted to get out of my skin, I wanted an escape!
But I won't trade my soul for a temporary shape!
I'm weeding out the garden! (Yeah, I'm pulling it out!) Washing away the sin, washing away the doubt!
[Outro] (I saw your mom at Giant...) (I remember that morning prayer...) Why didn't you choose me?
...I'm choosing myself now.
This is my closure.
Stepping into the light.
My sanctuary is gold.
(Eyepiercinglove... amen)
Eyepiercinglove
