Surface

[intro] yeah….

31 , still learnin me

Tryna heal what nobody sees

Mm-mm

Three years upstate , cold nights , steel doors, missed birthdays , missed hugs , missed way too much more

Seen my family through a phone screen goo action ‘ like I’m strong , but inside felt low

Got a woman saying “ baby you can rise “ but it’s still hard to believe it I look inside my eyes

Fighting with addictions when the room gets dark

Temporary love trying to to cover broken parts

And my grandfather told me “ boy don’t waste your soul” said the pain don’t define me and the scares can make me grow

I done mistakes I can’t rewind but every loss taught me something bout life

Now im standing at the edge of change tryna finally break these chains

Now my blessings comin to the surface all the pain finally feeling like it’s worth it .. I was lost .. tryna live through the hurtin ‘ now I see the man beneath the burden

And I …..

I just wanna live right , tryna find peace in the night even when I fall, I keep working cause my blessings coming to the surface

Clockin in , moving up , they see the growth now

Used to hate my reflection, I got hope now

Every promotion feel like proof I survived

Every small win remind me I’m alive

I know love ain’t easy when you battling yourself

Can’t pour into nobody if you empty yourself

But she stayed when I was at my low, when I doubted my worth

That type of love make a broken man search

For a reason

For a light

For the man I’m supposed to be in life

I ain’t proud of every road I took but god still kept me when the world over looked

And every chapter full of pain and scars , still bought me closer to who you are

Grandpa said” keep your head high” even when the tears fall at night and I know heaven hear me prayin I ain’t who I was yesterday

Nooooo… I ain’t goin back again I’m learning how to love my self again

My blessings comin to the surface .. everything I went through had its purpose now the light inside me finally working and my soul no longer uncertain

I….

I just wanna live right and hold my family a little more tight and if love still sees me imperfect

Maybe I’m finally with it

Yeah….. maybe I’m finally worth it