The loss of a dad

Verse 1

I still catch myself reaching for the phone

When something happens you would’ve wanted to know

Then the silence reminds me you’re not there

And I’d give anything just to hear you say you care

Your picture’s sitting where it’s always been

And sometimes I swear I see you smile again

Everybody says that time will heal the pain

But they never said how much of you would remain

Chorus

If Heaven had a door, I’d knock tonight

Just to see your face, just to hold you tight

I’d tell you all the things I should’ve said before

And I wouldn’t waste a second if Heaven had a door

I’d ask you if you’re proud of who I’ve become

Tell you how I miss you when the day is done

I know I’d have to leave, but I’d beg for one minute more

If only Heaven had a door

Verse 2

There are pieces of you in the things I do

In the way I laugh, in the way I push through

And on the days when this world gets hard

I hear your voice somewhere inside my heart

There are memories I’m scared someday I’ll lose

Little things that nobody knew but me and you

So I hold them close like photographs in time

Because losing you once was enough for this heart of mine

Chorus

If Heaven had a door, I’d knock tonight

Just to see your face, just to hold you tight

I’d tell you all the things I should’ve said before

And I wouldn’t waste a second if Heaven had a door

I’d ask you if you’re proud of who I’ve become

Tell you how I miss you when the day is done

I know I’d have to leave, but I’d beg for one minute more

If only Heaven had a door

Bridge

Maybe you’re somewhere where the hurting ends

Maybe someday I’ll see you again

Until that day, Dad, I’ll carry you with me

In every road I take, in every dream I dream

Final Chorus

If Heaven had a door, I’d knock tonight

I wouldn’t need answers, I’d just hold you tight

I’d say, “Dad, I love you,” like a thousand times before

Then I’d say it a thousand more

And if you asked me how I’ve made it without you here

I’d probably just smile through a thousand tears

And say, “I never really lost you—you’re who I’m living for”

Still, I wish with all my heart

That Heaven had a door

Outro

So until the day that door opens for me

I’ll keep you alive in every memory

And wherever this life takes me, near or far

I’ll always be your child

And you’ll always be my dad.