Back To The Black

Don’t go back there…

Don’t go back there…

That place still got your name in the smoke…

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2AM and the dashboard glowin’

Bottle half gone and the rain still pourin’

Hands on the wheel but my mind keep driftin’

Back to the pit where the pain start livin’

I swore I changed, I swore I healed

But scars still cut when the nights get real

Everybody see smiles in the daylight hours

Don’t see me break in the shower

Got anger sittin’ in the passenger seat

Tellin’ me, “Crash out, give the devil what he needs”

Another shot burn like gasoline veins

Whole damn soul got trapped in flames

I been one bad night from losin’ control

One blackout away from diggin’ that hole

Tryna stay clean from the thoughts I feed

But rage grow teeth when the heart still bleeds

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And I know that road too well

Cold motel hearts and a private hell

Every drink got my past inside

And it whispers, “Come back tonight…”

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I DON’T WANNA GO BACK TO THE BLACK

Back to the nights where my soul collapse

Back to the rage and the pills and Jack

Back to the ghost I barely outlast

I still hear that dark place callin’

Every time I feel myself fallin’

Bottle in my hand, walls all cracked

Fightin’ every day not to go back

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I got demons that know my name

Know my habits, know my pain

Know exactly what to say

When I’m drunk and wide awake

They say, “You ain’t built for peace

You were made for the war beneath”

So I scream at God through a cloud of smoke

While my lungs and liver slowly choke

Punch holes through the drywall skin

Bleed rage just to feel again

Friends all worried but I lie instead

“Yeah bro, I’m good,” while the light turn red

Every mirror got a stranger starin’

Bloodshot eyes and a soul that’s wearin’

Thin from the nights of self-destruction

Tryna outrun my corruption

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I HATE THE MAN I BECOME AT NIGHT

WHEN THE ALCOHOL TURN PAIN TO LIFE

WHEN THE MEMORIES WON’T SIT STILL

AND THE DARK START CLIMBIN’ THE HILLS

I KNOW THAT PIT

I KNOW THAT FEELIN’

WHEN YOUR OWN DAMN MIND TURN EVIL

WHEN YOU WANNA BURN EVERYTHING YOU LOVE

JUST TO FEEL SOMETHIN’ ENOUGH

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Glass on the floor

Fists on the sink

One more drink

One more drink

Heartbeat violent

Head gone numb

Tellin’ myself

“Don’t become what you come from…”

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I DON’T WANNA GO BACK TO THE BLACK

Back to the scars and the panic attacks

Back to the monster dressed in my past

Back to the nights I thought wouldn’t last

I still hear that dark place callin’

Every time my whole world fallin’

Bottle in my hand, soul off track

Fightin’ like hell not to go back

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Rain still falls on the highway lines…

And the devil still waits where the dark road winds…

But I’m still here…

Still swingin’…

Still fightin’ the black inside…