Verse
Been arguing with God in the shower again
Water hitting my face like it know where I been
I smile for the crowd, then I ghost all my friends
Same problems new day, different pills in the pen (yeah)
Money in the mattress, paranoia in my spine
I don’t trust the silence, it be loud in my mind
Therapy on Tuesdays, still avoiding the truth
I’m a professional liar when I say “I’m cool” (I’m straight)
Ash in the tray, glass half empty
Mirror talk crazy, swear it trying to tempt me
I don’t fear death, I fear wasting my breath
Saying shit I don’t mean just to feel some respect
Mama pray for me nightly, I don’t sleep much
Dreams got sharp edges, wake up beat up (damn)
I don’t need saving, just space to breathe
Too many voices, they sound like me
Hook
I been sinking real slow but I float somehow (uh)
Laughing in the dark, hope it don’t show now
If I say I’m fine, I’m probably lying
I been dancing with my demons, yeah, they all timing
Floating through the night with a weight on me (yeah)
Trying not to crack under what they want from me
If I go quiet, don’t assume it’s peace
I’m just trying not to lose the little left of me
Verse 2
Used to want the throne, now I want a day off
Fame feel like a drug with the worst comedown
People love the art, don’t care who you are
They clap for the fall like it’s part of the job (wild)
I been romanticizing damage, that’s on me
Turned trauma to jokes, made it sound deep
Laugh track playing while my heart bleeding
If honesty a sin, then I’m barely redeeming
I keep my vices close, enemies closer
Love feel good but it come with exposure
I give too much, then I shut down cold
Same cycle spin like a vinyl broke (skrrt)
If heaven got rules, I probably bent them
If hell got music, I already been there
I ain’t chasing ghosts, they just follow my pace
Every time I slow down, they right in my face
Hook
I been sinking real slow but I float somehow (uh-huh)
Laughing in the dark, hope it don’t show now
If I say I’m fine, I’m probably lying
I been dancing with my demons, yeah, they all timing
Floating through the night with a weight on me (yeah)
Trying not to crack under what they want from me
If I go quiet, don’t assume it’s peace
I’m just trying not to lose the little left of me
Outro
Tell my younger self it get heavy but manageable
Tell my older self don’t numb what’s damageable
I’m not perfect, I’m just present today
If I make it through the night, that’s a win… okay? (exhale)
