The war within me

At first glance I’m fine, feeling light in my skin

Smiling at the mirror like I’m letting love in

Then something changes, no warning, no signs

I’m tearing myself down every curve, every line

I swear I’m trying to love this body I keep denying

I don’t see what they see

Can’t believe this reflection is me

Trapped in a war I didn’t choose

Some days I’m scared I’m starting to lose

I might never love every curve, every line

But maybe I don’t need to be perfect to shine

I fix my hair, I stand up tall

But it only takes seconds for it all to fall

From proud to broken in the blink of an eye

All that progress begins to die

I still don’t see what they see

But I’m learning to speak a little kinder to me

I’m fighting this war that I didn’t choose

But now it’s a war I refuse to lose

I wear the outfit, no matter how I feel

Cause that what it takes when your learning to heal

I smile at the mirror, starting to love the girl i see

But one photo, one glance and it’s back to war with me