Survivor

I used to break at the sound of his name

Now I rise even in the pouring rain

I learned to smile with tears in my eyes

Silly little girl, kept believing his lies

He’d say he loved me, then he’d raise his hand

Can’t believe his mama said he was a man

The bruises faded, but the pain still stays

All of those nights I dropped to my knees and prayed

Trapped in my head, thought I’m better off dead

Finally I see through the lies that he fed

Love isn’t bruises or crying in your bed

It’s not cleaning up the mess from the words that he said

He’d beat me down and go play pretend

Told all his friends, it was me in the end

I packed my bags with shaking hands and fear

I know I’ll never get the sorry I deserve to hear

Took back my power, one breathe at a time

Relearning how to live that life that once was mine

I stopped blaming myself for the damage he caused

Stopped chasing around love, that came with a cost

I found a mirror, looked myself in the eyes

Said “you’re still here, and girl you survived”

Love isn’t bruises or crying in your bed

It’s learning to love yourself after all the shit that he said

You tried to break me, but I rose instead

I found my voice in the silence, with every tear that I shed

I’m not your victim, I’m taking back my name

I won’t carry your guilt, I won’t live in shame

You’ll never own, the story of my pain

I survived you, and now I’m dancing in the rain