[Verse 1]
I was a car with no brakes
Going fast at the pain just to feel awake
Sabotage on repeat in my head
Picking every open wound ’til it bled
You took my hands off my throat
Said “Breathe, you’re more than the lies you wrote”
You’re the one steady thing that I know
Every time that I spin, you slow me down, slow me down
[Chorus]
You’re my calm in the chaos
My shelter when I break off
When I’m lost in the dark, you’re the spark in my brain
Pull me out of my own way, again and again
You’re my calm in the chaos
Hold me up when I shake, love
I don’t know where I’d be, where I’d fall, where I’d drop
If you ever let go, if your heart ever stopped
[Verse 2]
I used to stare at the ceiling
Thinking maybe I’m better as a ghost than healing
Every mirror was a war I’d lose
Every choice another bruise, I’d choose
You walked into my worst-night mind
Turned the knives into flowers I could hide behind
Now when the voices all scream “you’re done”
You just look at me and they come undone (yeah)
[Chorus]
You’re my calm in the chaos
My shelter when I break off
When I’m lost in the dark, you’re the spark in my brain
Pull me out of my own way, again and again
You’re my calm in the chaos
Hold me up when I shake, love
I don’t know where I’d be, where I’d fall, where I’d drop
If you ever let go, if your heart ever stopped
[Bridge]
[Drop to half-time, low and tense]
I was drowning in the tide of my own head
You were standing on the shore, reaching both hands
You said “baby, you are not your worst thought”
And it hit like a fist, like a freight, like a gunshot
Now every time I’m set to self-destruct
You cut the wires, say “that’s enough”
If there’s an angel I believe in on this Earth
It’s the girl who taught a dead heart what it’s worth (yeah)
[Chorus]
You’re my calm in the chaos
My shelter when I break off
When I’m lost in the dark, you’re the spark in my brain
Pull me out of my own way, again and again
You’re my calm in the chaos
Hold me up when I shake, love
I don’t know where I’d be, where I’d fall, where I’d drop
If I ever lost you, if your heart ever stopped (oh)
[Outro]
You’re the one thing I got right
You’re the reason I still fight
Every storm, every scar that I’ve worn
You turn it into light, into home, into home