[Intro – soft guitar, distant reverb | clean]
Thirty-five and staring at the ceiling again
Counting cracks like the years that slipped through my hands
Every dream I buried underneath the bills
Every road I never took still calls me still
The mirror shows a stranger wearing my skin
A ghost of who I thought that I would’ve been
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[Verse 1 – building drums | clean → strained]
I thought by now I’d feel like a man
But I’m just patching holes in a sinking plan
Every choice feels heavier now
Like chains I welded somehow
My heart screams run but my feet stay still
Responsibilities over the hills
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[Pre-Chorus – tension build | layered vocals]
I want to burn this life to the ground
Pack a bag and disappear without a sound
But every face I love pulls me back from the edge
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[Chorus – explosive | fry screams + clean harmony]
I WANNA START AGAIN
(scream) TEAR OUT THE PAGES I’M TRAPPED WITHIN
Drive until the map runs out of road
But I’m anchored in the ashes
Bound by the love I can’t let go
I WANNA BREAK THESE WALLS
(scream) BUT THEY’RE BUILT FROM EVERYONE I HOLD
So I scream at the sky instead
Cause freedom feels like betrayal
And escape lives only in my head
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[Verse 2 – heavier guitar | clean → fry]
There’s a wildfire under my ribs
Every “what if” burns like gasoline
The younger me is screaming my name
Asking why I traded fire for routine
I hear him in the quiet at night
“Was surviving ever worth the fight?”
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[Pre-Chorus – rising intensity]
Sometimes I dream of vanishing
Just dust on a highway line
But the voices that say “we need you”
Drag me back every time
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[Chorus – heavier | fry screams]
I WANNA START AGAIN
(scream) RIP OUT THE BONES OF WHO I’VE BEEN
Drive until the sun burns through my soul
But I’m anchored in the ashes
Bound by the love I can’t let go
I WANNA BREAK THESE WALLS
(scream) BUT THEY’RE BUILT FROM EVERYONE I HOLD
So I bleed out every regret
Cause freedom feels like betrayal
And escape lives only in my head
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[Breakdown – chugging guitars | low screams]
(LOW SCREAM)
Midlife panic in my chest
Every heartbeat a failed test
I could run — I could disappear
But their voices keep me here
“Don’t go.”
“We need you.”
(LOW SCREAM)
So I bury the storm inside my lungs
And carry the weight of everyone
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[Bridge – atmospheric | clean emotional]
Maybe starting over isn’t running away
Maybe it’s learning how to stay
Maybe the fire inside my veins
Was never meant to burn these chains
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[Final Chorus – huge | gang vocals + fry screams]
I WANNA START AGAIN
(scream) BUT THIS IS THE LIFE I’M LIVING IN
Every scar a road I chose
Still anchored in the ashes
Still fighting ghosts nobody knows
I WANNA BREAK THESE WALLS
(scream) BUT LOVE IS THE STRONGEST PRISON OF ALL
So I scream until it fades
Cause freedom feels like betrayal
But maybe…
Staying is the bravest escape.
