Substance Music

Uh..

Let’s just.. get right to it..

These.. cb4 rappers..

Sell.. great illusions..

Honestly.. its quite..

Amusing.. I.. can not..

listen.. to none.. of..

Those nursery.. raps..

I need.. substance music..

Cause.. I be.. really going..

through.. shit.. so for me..

this is.. all therapeutic..

I think about.. my kids..

When.. I feel.. I’m.. a loose it..

There’s a.. war inside..

I’m not.. picking sides..

i just.. lean into.. my emotions..

It gets.. the passion..

Flowing.. like the ocean..

sometimes.. it’s needed..

just.. to.. keep going..

I done gave.. others hope..

and felt.. hopeless..

but.. I never.. give up..

I keep going.. cause..

At.. the end.. It’s all..

gone be.. worth it..

What’s.. buried.. will..

one day.. re - surface..

The goal.. is to break..

Generational.. curses..

so.. to my kids.. i..

apologize.. if I.. ever made..

you.. feel worthless..

everything.. I do.. is for..

the both.. of ya’ll..

cause.. I understand..

ya’ll.. more than.. worth it..

I.. need to.. be.. more present..

wasn’t all.. my doing..

But.. fuck the.. excuses..

I know.. I’m.. far from.. perfect..

Missed calls.. led to disappointments..

No shows.. never was on purpose..

doesn’t.. matter though..

cause ya still hurting..

and.. That shit hurt me..

ya don’t.. deserve it..

And.. Neither do I..

watched.. people..

orchestrate.. their own hells..

then blame it on me..

now.. I’m.. the bad guy..

I be.. missing ya.. so much..

I’m.. loosing my mind..

I can’t.. help.. but cry..

Sometimes.. I.. hear ya.. talking..

like Daddy.. we love you..

keep going.. it all will be fine..

that brings.. more tears..

But then.. once.. the tides reside..

you see.. the fire.. in my eyes..

And their.. on the prize..

Learned.. from the..

glares.. of the wise..

Can’t.. go against.. the waves..

Gotta learn.. how to.. ride..

&.. real peace.. can..

only be.. found.. Inside..

Uh..

Let’s just.. get right to it..

These.. cb4 rappers..

Sell.. great illusions..

Honestly.. its quite..

Amusing.. I.. can not..

listen.. to none.. of..

Those nursery.. raps..

I need.. substance music..

Cause.. I be.. really going..

through.. shit.. so for me..

this is.. all therapeutic..

I think about.. my kids..

When.. I feel.. I’m.. a loose it..

There’s a.. war inside..

I’m not.. picking sides..

i just.. lean into.. my emotions..

It gets.. the passion..

Flowing.. like the ocean..

sometimes.. it’s needed..

just.. to.. keep going..

I done gave.. others hope..

and felt.. hopeless..

but.. I never.. give up..

I keep going.. cause..

At.. the end.. It’s all..

gone be.. worth it..