Same Place

[Verse 1]
Yeah, I don’t like the person in the mirror lately
Feel like everything around me’s going crazy
Try to hold it in but it don’t ever save me
I just bottle it and let it break me

I got people that depend on me, I know that
But I keep messing up and I can’t slow that
Every promise that I make, I seem to blow past
Then I sit alone and think about it, go back

Rewind every moment I regret
Every word I wish I never said
Every time I saw the look they get
Like they slowly losing hope instead

I don’t blame ‘em, I don’t even trust me
If I was them, I’d probably leave me, trust me
Say I’m trying but it’s getting ugly
Feels like nothing that I do can fix me

[Chorus]
I don’t wanna be this way
But I don’t know how to change
Every time I take a step
I just end up in the same place

I feel lost in my own head
Every thought is filled with dread
Try to tell myself I’m fine
But I don’t believe a word I said

[Verse 2]
Yeah, I keep saying I’ll do better, then I don’t though
That’s the part that makes me feel like I’m a lost cause
I can see it in their faces when I fall off
Like they waiting for the moment that I drop off

I hate that I can’t give them what they need from me
Hate the fact I turn love into a casualty
Act like I don’t care, but it’s just fear in me
Scared that if they see me, they’ll be leaving me

So I push away before they ever get close
Turn a good thing into something I can’t hold
Tell myself that I’m just better on my own
But I know that’s just a lie that I’ve been sold

I’m exhausted from the war inside my brain
Every day I wake up feeling the same
Try to fight it but I’m stuck inside the pain
And I don’t even recognize my name

[Chorus]
I don’t wanna be this way
But I don’t know how to change
Every time I take a step
I just end up in the same place

I feel lost in my own head
Every thought is filled with dread
Try to tell myself I’m fine
But I don’t believe a word I said

[Bridge]
Tell me why I sabotage
Everything I ever want
Tell me why I build it up
Just to watch it fall apart

I don’t need another voice
Tellin’ me I’m not enough
I already say that daily
Yeah, I hear it more than once

[Outro]
If I’m being honest, I’m afraid
That I’ll never change
That I’ll stay this way
And push everybody away

And end up alone with the mess I made
Yeah… that’s the part I hate

Alternative Hip-Hop,Conscious Hip-Hop, Emotional Rap