I Felt so different like I was on the clouds
No one else but us surrounded by crowds
Locked in
We took our time it really didn’t feel rushed
First time I saw you I blushed
But I had to keep my distance never felt this way before
I felt shook to the core
But I couldn’t resist wanted to feel your kiss it was my wish so I got closer your face on my mind
I remember when we went to the ice cream parlor and talked and walked
I didn’t have a car so you helped me get home safe
We got so close I knew your secrets and you knew mine
And then after some time you became mine
A true love I never wanted to decline
I met your family and you met mine I felt us grow strong a bond like twine always together
Forever you were mine heart so strong like stone that couldn’t be mined
After roughly a year I still held you close I gave you a promise in the shape of a ring to
One day hold hands and see the doves 🕊️
Fly while the bells ring.
I felt like a king and you my queen to fight together forever but slowly my mind clouded
By the weather a strong force in the shape of myself made me doubt my worth
And where I stand felt like a boy not a man didn’t feel worthy to hold your hand
Voices consuming me and putting me in
a void.
When I told you
you held me close with hugs and smiles and a couple tears praying for me to face my fears
Too far into the void I pushed you away with no explanation I was my own poison
So mad with myself I made you to blame
Making you cry I wanted to shout and stop but I was no longer myself an image of what I hated.
Drowned by the void I couldn’t resist I couldn’t see your face the voices wanted me to not reach out
Not being myself I would soon reach defeat I grabbed my phone and let the void take over once I could notice the girl I loved including the bond I cherished evaporated.
Convinced I was fine without her I went done a lonely path no hope not even a laugh.
Until one day I decided to fight my inner demon it was a uncomfortable feeling but it needed to be done I won and was able to see the sun after so much time had passed
Looked in the mirror and needed to change ashamed of my appearance I worked on myself and learned to love myself again took more time but was worth it. Now that I feel whole I’m flooded with memories o
