I just wanted to come do something that’ll help that’s why I was offering and always be offering, but don’t worry Honey Bear I’m starting to feel like I’m beginning to be a pest or something I be just wanting to be around but it’s always a reason why I can’t and instead of keep feeling avoided I’ll stop. Failure is Me and I'm meant to fail i apologize for you having to call another man to do wat I obviously can't or not needed for. My life sucks I'm being avoided by the one person in the world that I want to be around but at this point I'm kool and I do not care anymore. Maybe if i do end up booked that would help everyone forget about me completely. I Don't Care about happiness anymore it ain't in my future so whatever So today I hi eat sit here and laugh at myself I'm really committed to staying lonely until I can get back with a lady who I call my queen. But what makes it funny is she really doesn't want anything to do with me. I can see now that I wasn't meant to live a good life. I'm was placed here to watch her find real happiness and enjoy it. So if I gotta be miserable and sad in order for the ones I really love to enjoy their lives so be it I kinda already been alone my entire life so whatever You don't know how bad I be wanting to call you but instead I gotta stay in my lane man I would give anything just to hear you tell me it's me and you again until the end and it be that. I really life have you and our kids, and I'm fine with that it's just as of late me being paranoid checking you shit was dead wrong and I am truly sorry. I want to tell you don't let these niggas get no taste of nothing your coochie, your hands, you ass, and for sure not your mouth so bad but you are single and you do as you please. But Nancy just know I do not want to have another kiss, hug, sex, oral sex or anything, cuddles, or relationship. And atp it might not even happen ever again but that's ok I am fully ready to live on without touching another even if you don't believe me.
