Silence In The Sky

Dear God…

I hope you don’t get mad at me for saying this,

But I don’t even know if you exist anymore.

I begged, I cried, I prayed, I pleaded,

But all I hear is silence in the sky…

I’m drowning in the weight of my scars,

Hernia tearing, can’t fix, can’t restart,

My wife’s in the hospital, I’m screaming for a spark,

But the heavens stay quiet, leave me alone in the dark.

Accused of sins I never touched,

Called a monster, demon, addict, too much,

I gave my soul in 2008, felt fire ignite,

Now it’s ashes in my chest, fading out of sight.

Silence in the sky, no answer when I call,

Church is a charade, prayers bounce off the wall.

I gave you my soul, but you left me to die,

Now I’m screaming at the heavens, just silence in the sky.

You blessed me once, or maybe it was chance,

Food stamps, a roof, a fleeting romance.

I thought it was miracles, thought it was fate,

But maybe it was timing, and I just had to wait.

Now my kids curse me, my wife throws stones,

I stand in the wreckage, broken, alone.

If you’re real, then why desert me in pain?

If you’re gone, then I’ll rise, I’ll carry the chain.

Maybe God was a dream, maybe faith was a lie,

Maybe miracles are moments we just magnify.

I gave my heart, my soul, my tears, my fight,

But the silence keeps echoing every single night.

Silence in the sky, no answer when I call,

Church is a charade, prayers bounce off the wall.

I gave you my soul, but you left me to die,

Now I’m screaming at the heavens, just silence in the sky.

So if God don’t exist, then I’ll make my own way,

Through the anger, through the sorrow, through the night, through the day.

This is my anthem, my cry, my reply,

To the silence, to the darkness, to the silence in the sky.