I crawled out of the bottle one lonely night. Fought through the shakes to learn to live right. I've got to tell you it was a hell of a fight. But I withstood it all.
It didn't take 12 steps for me to find sober. Didn't take all those lines I'd heard over and over. It just took one night for me and God to get closer for him to stop my fall.
Now I've been sober for so many days. And I owe God all the praise. I am thankful to escape that Jim Beam haze. To be alive to see better days.
But he didn't stop the cussing and fighting, the slamming doors, the up all nights. He didn't stop the clock and turn back time. Didn't punch a button to rewind. Didn't stop you from remembering everything I've fucked up. Yeah he might of fixed me, but he didn't fix us.
Really could have used that coffee table, the one half ass standing barely stable. Wish I didn't have to see my past anymore like all those holes in that bedroom door. There Aint enough spakle or joint compound to fix all the shit that I've torn down. All the blurry times we don't discuss, like the drunken night, I lost your trust. Sometimes i wish how didn't have to see that he fixed me, but he didn't fix us.
It would be easy to just ask him for a little more help, but I guess I want the pain of knowing that I put you through hell. Your never gonna see what you want me to be. But I'm never gonna forget how I used to be.
Yeah, I've been sober so many days now, and I owe God all the praise now. Pulled me through that drinking haze to see better days. But he didn't stop the cussing and fighting, the slamming doors the up all nights. He didn't stop the clock and turn back time, didn't punch a button to rewind. Didn't stop you from remembering everything I've fucked up. He might of fixed me, but he didn't fix us. Yeah he might have woke me up to let me see. What I've put you through for being with me. And shown me all the things that'll never be enough. When he fixed me, he didn't fix us.
