Am i handsome enough despite what i do in the dark? Will you damn me for when i lash out and hide my heart? Cause im trying to hide my spark under a blackout curtain And all ive done is set the whole house on fire I cant get enough hours of shut eye to kill the tired I need to be held and told itll all be okay Am i handsome enough? Ill try another day I wanna be mature with my emoitions Is it my fault i dont know what to say? I thought you let me in but maybe im simply passing through Am i handsome enough? Treat me like a stray. Was it my fault i got betrayed Why am i so bad at trusting? Am i handsome enough? Maybe it i squeeze and sweat and scratch away all the acne and the fat Maybe if i act cool and tough Am i handsome enough? I dont carve with a knife or razorblades My overgrown nails work just the same Am i handsome despite all the shame? Am i handsome enough? Just another punch in the gut Maybe itll go away What do you say? Am i handsome enough despite what i do in the dark? Will you damn me for when i lash out and hide my heart? Cause im trying to hide my spark under a blackout curtain And all ive done is set the whole house on fire Its never and its always been so dire Im sorry im not mature enough i just wanna know what i desire Im ripping my fingertips on every ledge Trying to climb back up just to fall off again Am i handsome enough? If everyone knew Would you still treat me like you do Or would you feel to much shame? Would you lift and reject that claim? Am i handsome enough? You lit this spark im trying to snuff What if everyone sees me? What if they look my way? What if they dig to deep? What if they know? Then would you feel ashamed? If they knew i have no idea what im doing but still trying all the same? Id they knew since i was i little boy ive hoarded all the blame Im to greedy Am i handsome enough? Dont look at me before you awnser Just hear my heart in every note Can you feel the blame the shame and the hope? Can you hear my life and death and something more all corded in that same rope? Do you understand the scope? Its more than skin deep When i feel scared When i lash out When i retreat So do you know what i mean When i ask you if im handsome enough Do you get that i dont know how to believe a yes Is that enough to get you to give up to break to bend is that enough stress? Will you take the shot? Cause blood is all that can wash me clean Yeah do you know what that means Or what im asking you to believe Do you get this type of dream? One thats real but so far fetched One that i beat and weep and wretch Just another punch in the gut Maybe itll go away What do you say? Am i handsome enough despite what i do in the dark? Will you damn me for when i lash out and hide my heart? Cause im trying to hide my spark under a blackout curtain And all ive done is set the whole house on fire You lit the wick and i try again to snuff it But you wont even let me hide this pire Its hard to hide a lamp, but impossible to hide a house fire

House Fire