House Fire

Am i handsome enough despite what i do in the dark?

Will you damn me for when i lash out and hide my heart?

Cause im trying to hide my spark under a blackout curtain

And all ive done is set the whole house on fire

I cant get enough hours of shut eye to kill the tired

I need to be held and told itll all be okay

Am i handsome enough?

Ill try another day

I wanna be mature with my emoitions

Is it my fault i dont know what to say?

I thought you let me in but maybe im simply passing through

Am i handsome enough?

Treat me like a stray.

Was it my fault i got betrayed

Why am i so bad at trusting?

Am i handsome enough?

Maybe it i squeeze and sweat and scratch away all the acne and the fat

Maybe if i act cool and tough

Am i handsome enough?

I dont carve with a knife or razorblades

My overgrown nails work just the same

Am i handsome despite all the shame?

Am i handsome enough?

Just another punch in the gut

Maybe itll go away

What do you say?

Am i handsome enough despite what i do in the dark?

Will you damn me for when i lash out and hide my heart?

Cause im trying to hide my spark under a blackout curtain

And all ive done is set the whole house on fire

Its never and its always been so dire

Im sorry im not mature enough i just wanna know what i desire

Im ripping my fingertips on every ledge

Trying to climb back up just to fall off again

Am i handsome enough?

If everyone knew

Would you still treat me like you do

Or would you feel to much shame?

Would you lift and reject that claim?

Am i handsome enough?

You lit this spark im trying to snuff

What if everyone sees me?

What if they look my way?

What if they dig to deep?

What if they know?

Then would you feel ashamed?

If they knew i have no idea what im doing but still trying all the same?

Id they knew since i was i little boy ive hoarded all the blame

Im to greedy

Am i handsome enough?

Dont look at me before you awnser

Just hear my heart in every note

Can you feel the blame the shame and the hope?

Can you hear my life and death and something more all corded in that same rope?

Do you understand the scope?

Its more than skin deep

When i feel scared

When i lash out

When i retreat

So do you know what i mean

When i ask you if im handsome enough

Do you get that i dont know how to believe a yes

Is that enough to get you to give up to break to bend is that enough stress?

Will you take the shot?

Cause blood is all that can wash me clean

Yeah do you know what that means

Or what im asking you to believe

Do you get this type of dream?

One thats real but so far fetched

One that i beat and weep and wretch

Just another punch in the gut

Maybe itll go away

What do you say?

Am i handsome enough despite what i do in the dark?

Will you damn me for when i lash out and hide my heart?

Cause im trying to hide my spark under a blackout curtain

And all ive done is set the whole house on fire

You lit the wick and i try again to snuff it

But you wont even let me hide this pire

Its hard to hide a lamp, but impossible to hide a house fire