[Intro – whispered over vinyl crackle]
the city sighs / neon cries / another high / another lie
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[Verse 1]
Quarter-past 3 AM, Styrofoam cup in my hand
Codeine lilac, sweet talk, sinking like quicksand
Bodies blur, cheap perfume, strangers know my name
But when the lights come up, I’m right back where I came
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[Hook]
I keep chasing numb, but numb won’t love me back
Lines on the countertop, tracks on a beaten track
Pour it, pop it, roll it—fade to monochrome black
I keep chasing numb, but numb won’t love me back
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[Verse 2]
Tally marks on motel sheets, counting hearts I never kept
Silhouettes in smoke rings, trading secrets we won’t accept
Instagram smiles, filtered wine, flexing pain in disguise
Scrolling through my memory reels, every reel is a lie
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[Pre-Chorus]
Hands up on my shoulders, feel like phantom limbs
Karaoke laughter drowning heavy hymns
I play pretend—king of clouds—’til the thunder begins
Echoes tell me silence wins
(beat drops into deeper lo-fi groove)
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[Hook – repeat]
I keep chasing numb, but numb won’t love me back
Spirits in a bottle dance inside a paper sack
Burn it, breathe it, crush it—fade to monochrome black
I keep chasing numb, but numb won’t love me back
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[Bridge – the jump & mid-fall realization]
On the roof, drunk dusk collides with dawn
I jumped.
Weightless air—then time slowed down
City lights like stars beneath a crown
And halfway down I whispered,
“Oh shit… I fucked up bad.
Tell Mom I’m sorry for the nights I made her sad
I didn’t mean to be a ghost wearing her son’s skin
Didn’t know how to lose and still let love in”
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[Verse 3 – free-fall reflections]
Every fight, every drink, every word I never said
Flashing like Polaroids inside my head
That time Dad cried and thought I didn’t see
The birthdays I skipped, pretending I was free
Regret’s a bitch that bites too late
Gravity don’t care about fate
I thought the pain would die with me
But it followed all the way to the concrete
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[Final Hook – fading consciousness]
I kept chasing numb, but numb don’t hold you back
It kisses you like comfort, then it fades to black
Falling, fading, praying—take this weight I packed
I kept chasing numb, but numb don’t love you back
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[Outro – voicemail from Mom, echoing in the static]
“Hi baby… I made your favorite. Just call me, okay? I miss you.”
(click)
(vinyl hiss fades to silence)
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