Intro (soft, distant, sung):
I practiced this moment
But I still choke on your name
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Verse 1 (harsh, controlled):
I kept my composure for so long
I forgot how to breathe
Every word I never said
Still lives inside of me
I watched you drift farther
While I stayed quiet and proud
I thought silence was kindness
Now it’s screaming so loud
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Pre-Chorus (pull back → tension):
I don’t hate you
I hate that I still care
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🔥 CHORUS (EMOTIONAL, HIGH SINGING — HELD NOTES)
(clean/high vocal, strained, breaking)
I still want you haaaaappy
Even if it’s not with me
I’ll hold this pain inside my chest
So you can finally breathe
I still want you haaaaappy
Even if it kills my heart
I won’t beg you to come back
I’ll just fall apart
(let the last word stretch and crack)
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⚠️ BREAKDOWN I — EMOTION COLLAPSES
(Slow crushing chugs
Massive drum hits
Pain turning violent)
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Verse 2 (harsh, angrier):
I replay every ending
Where I said something real
But courage came too late
And now this is the deal
You found peace in letting go
I found scars in staying still
I would’ve burned the world for you
But I never fucking will
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Pre-Chorus (half-sung, restrained):
I hope you never hear this
Because it would break you too
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🔥 CHORUS (REPEAT — BIGGER, MORE PAIN)
(high singing, layered, almost crying)
I still want you haaaaappy
Even if I’m erased
If your smile costs me everything
Then I’ll pay it anyway
I still want you haaaaappy
Even when I’m alone
I’ll scream this into empty rooms
And act like I’ve moved on
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⚠️ BREAKDOWN II — FAST, BRUTAL SNAP
(Fast chugging
Relentless double-kicks
Rage underneath grief)
(No melody
Just impact)
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🔥 FINAL CHORUS (LAST — EXTENDED, MOST EMOTIONAL)
(clean vocal pushed to the limit, held notes, cracking tone)
I still want you haaaaappy
Even now… even still…
If loving you means losing you
Then I guess I always will
I still want you haaaaappy
Even when it destroys me
I won’t chain you to my sadness
Just remember me softly
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⚠️ FINAL BUILD → BREAKDOWN III (ENDING)
Final Build-Up (sung, barely audible):
Please don’t hear this
Please don’t—
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FINAL BREAKDOWN (INSTRUMENTAL ONLY):
(Slow devastating hits
Then violent stop-start chugs
Emotion completely collapses)