Still enough

Yeah…

One year ago today, you looked at me like I was enough…

I just hope you still do…

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One year ago today, you smiled a little different

Now I stare at your face and I can feel the distance

You still hold me close, but your heart feel missin’

And I’m scared you miss the old you when you listen

I know I ain’t the prettiest girl all the time

And my anxiety be makin’ me lose my mind

I know I overthink, cry, and ask if you’re fine

But baby tell me… are you still happy being mine?

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We went from late night talks to forever plans

From “what are we?” to holdin’ onto each other’s hands

I remember when you looked at me like heaven

Now I count every silence like it’s some kind of weapon

And maybe it’s me, maybe I changed too much

Maybe my broken thoughts started killin’ your touch

I swear I try hard even when I’m fallin’ apart

But anxiety got a way of attackin’ the heart

You say you love me, but your eyes look tired

And I’m terrified I’m no longer what you desired

I know I get emotional, insecure, hard to read

But every broken piece of me still loves you endlessly

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I’m sorry if I’m hard to handle sometimes

Sorry if my storms keep cloudin’ your skies

I know I’m not perfect… I know that

But I loved you with everything I had

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One year ago today, you smiled a little different

Now I stare at your face and I can feel the distance

You still hold me close, but your heart feel missin’

And I’m scared you miss the old you when you listen

I know I ain’t the prettiest girl all the time

And my anxiety be makin’ me lose my mind

I know I overthink, cry, and ask if you’re fine

But baby tell me… are you still happy being mine?

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I see the old pictures, your laugh looked alive

Now I wonder if I’m the reason that light died

You deserve peace, not somebody always scared

Not somebody constantly askin’ if you care

But the truth is…

I love you more than my pride

More than the nights I secretly cried

More than the voices tellin’ me leave

‘Cause losing you is my worst dream

And maybe you don’t notice when I stare at you

Thinkin’ how lucky I am you stayed through

Every panic attack, every “I’m not enough”

Every night my mind got rough

I just hope when you look at me today

You still see the girl that made you wanna stay

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One year ago today…

You looked happier…

I just pray I still make your heart feel safe

Even on the days I can’t save myself…

I love you…

I just hope that’s still enough.