I was born in the middle, not chosen, not safe
Cribs made of rubble, lullabies of hate
Before I learned words, I learned how to brace
Before I learned love, I learned how to escape
Seven schools, same ghost in my name
Different walls, same trauma, same shame
Orphan lights flicker, nights never end
They say “new home” — I say “temporary again”
I don’t trust smiles, they expire too fast
Every promise sounds like the past
People ask why I’m cold like this
Try growing up where warmth doesn’t exist
Pre-Chorus (low, tense)
My brain’s still stuck in red alert
Amygdala never learned “safe”
Fight or flight in a quiet room
Even silence feels like a threat
Chorus (hook – dark, chant-like)
No happy days since day one
Just survival mode till I’m numb
Amygdala screaming “RUN”
Even when the war is done
I tried to disappear, not die
Just wanted peace inside my mind
If this is living, tell me why
Breathing feels like overtime
Verse 2 (Rap – faster, sharper)
They say “move on,” I say “from where?”
You don’t erase childhood by breathing air
Trauma doesn’t fade with age
It changes shape, it learns your face
I flinch at love, I doubt relief
Every good thing feels like grief
Because I know how it ends
Everything leaves — that’s what it did
Doctors name parts of my brain
Like labels make it hurt less
Amygdala hijacked my days
Fear driving, I’m just the guest
Pre-Chorus 2
They ask me why I’m always tired
I’ve been at war since I was one
No ceasefire in my head
Just echoes of what I survived
Chorus (stronger)
No happy days since day one
Just survival mode till I’m numb
Amygdala screaming “RUN”
Even when the war is done
I tried to disappear, not die
Just wanted quiet in my mind
If this is living, tell me why
I’m alive but feel left behind
Bridge (Spoken / half-rap — very Agust D)
I didn’t want to die
I wanted the noise to stop
I wanted one night
Where my heart didn’t lock
They call it weakness
I call it damage
You don’t blame glass
For shattering under a hammer
Break (beat drops — silence for 2 seconds)
(breathing sound)
Final Verse (Rap – defiant, controlled anger)
I’m still here, that’s the irony
Pain failed to finish me
Raised by fear, shaped by loss
Still standing — unfinished story
I’m not healed, don’t get it twisted
I just refused to be deleted
Born in war, raised in flame
But I decide how this ends
Final Chorus (anthem-like, darker hope)
No happy days carved in stone
But I survived on my own
Amygdala still on guard
But I made it this far
If my life was born in pain
Then my breath is my revenge
I stayed — remember my name
I stayed
Outro (soft, cold)
Still afraid
Still awake
But I stayed... Amygdala...amygdala..ooh amygdala in my head...
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