Vessels

Here I am,

Enjoying this balcony scenery

Feeling the wind through my hair

Solitude—she’s fair to me

Words are hard to find

Words I fear aren’t there

Empty shells with borrowed faces

Haunting every crowded space

They wear our lives, feel nothing sacred

Chasing pain they can’t erase

It’s the words that make us feel alive

Some words I just can’t bear

Burying the thought of who I was

And now I don’t fucking care

Words are hard to find

Words that echo in my mind

Still I can’t seem to let them out

Like they were left behind

By what I’ve earned

By what I can’t seem to keep

Everything I’ve yearned

For something out of reach

Say it loud, say it raw

Let it tear me apart

If silence is all I’ve got

Then it’s carved in my heart

I’ve bled for meaning

I’ve begged for peace

Every truth I get this close to

Slips right through me

Words I’m trying to find

Words that keep me alive

If I scream them into the dark

Will they finally sound like mine?