Reality sucks

My thoughts ain’t mine no more
Who’s to say they were before?
Static knocking at the door
Mind at war on all four— I can’t feel the floor
They sold me rainbows, sold me light
Truth came dressed in black and white
Behind my back they laugh and point
But wait until you get assigned a voice

Pressure builds.... where diamonds form
Cold inside, I fake the warm
Look composed but I am torn
Quiet rage before the storm
I feel the grasp of death my minds at war 
The pain and pressure where diamonds form
On the outside I look fine but I am torn
In a dark cold place I try to find the warmth

It's slowly eating who I am.
Nobody hears me nothing im saying
I reach f or help I don't see no hand
Jealousy and envy or they just did me bad
Kind gets you used by the fake and the trash
Smile in your face put a blade in your back
One day you'll get a taste  just  stating the facts
Karma is fair not a bitch only snake think like that

If this is my voice, why can’t I choose it?
If this is my mind, why can’t I mute it?

My thoughts aint mine no more 
who's to say if they were mine before
I reclaim my voice
My thoughts ain’t mine no more
But maybe they never were
In the dark I face the storm —
I am more.

I'm to the point where I scare myself 
I've walked down that path were I was done with myself 
The world is cruel unkind and feels closer to hell
Welcome to my mind and the card that were dealt
Poor white trash from the wrong side o the track
I found relief at the bottom of a pack
 drugs never left when love didn't come back
But felt pain at the bottom of every bag
Is what it is does what it does love always let me down the drugs let me know that I count

The pain and pressure where diamonds form
On the outside I look fine but I am torn
In a dark cold place I try to find the warmth
This is not me, it's the one you can't see..
The one behind the scenes, working my strings

The voice introduced to my thoughts
The ones that were forgot or lost
The ones that were protected at all cost 

Who would even notice that empty space 
The body bag filled ,The void , the smile on my face
The voice that once was mine
The choices that I use to apply
Now I'm guided by a force that can't be seen by eyes. 


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