My Life

How long have I got in the hot light 'til the shine rusts?

I've been thinking through the hard stuff

Over light drugs like every night

No, you don't need to come over

'Cause I'd crowd please and I'm tired

Slowly morphed into a poser

Barely know her anymore

Do I look high-functioning or

Is my façade crumblin'?

Oh God, don't actually answer me, Caroline

But, oh well, look at my life

Bet you can't tell, but it's kind of a bad time

A new spiral every night

Bawling my eyes out, no, but I'm so fine

Yeah, I might just shut up and drive

Hope I don't crash and blow out the headlights

My nightmare actualizеd

Got what I wanted, it doesn't sit right

I just got to the party with thе big shots and the Barbies

Empty talk and talk and talk until my ears bleed

He's holding a pill, he thinks that I should take one

But I'll raise him to the whole bunch

I'm kidding, God, he thinks I'm stupid

What a gut punch, but then we go

Downtown, there's no medicine

I'd spit out if it promises

Slowing down voices

Don't want to hear a sound

But, oh well, look at my life

Bet you can't tell, but it's kind of a bad time

A new spiral every night

Bawling my eyes out, no, but I'm so fine

Yeah, I might just shut up and drive

Hope I don't crash and blow out the headlights

My nightmare actualized

Got what I, what I

Maybe if I smile enough, I'll get away with givin' up

I'll move across the country just to judge myself

Like, just as much as I do when I'm sitting here

I miss my friends, I disappeared and haven't seen 'em in a year

Oh God, what am I doing here?

But, oh well, look at my life (Look at my life)

Bet you can't tell, but it's kind of a bad time

A new spiral every night (Every night, I)

Bawling my eyes out, no, but I'm so fine (Fine)

Yeah, I might just shut up and drive

Hope I don't crash and blow out the headlights

My nightmare actualized (Actualized)

Got what I wanted, it doesn't sit right (Right)

Ooh-ooh-ooh (Right)

I got what I wanted, it doesn't sit right (Right, right)

Ooh-ooh-ooh (Right)

Got what I wanted, it doesn't sit right