[Verse 1]
I came home
But I didn't really make it back
Dog tags hangin' from the rearview
Talkin' louder than the radio track
Mom asks
"Are you eating, are you fine?"
I just laugh and change the subject
Chase the questions with a cheap red wine
[Chorus]
I'm still battling demons after war
Kickin' down doors in my head, on the floor
Every loud sound feels like before
And I can't tell the past from my bedroom door
I'm still battling demons after war
All these names that my heart can't ignore
If I make it through tonight, through this storm
Will I ever feel normal anymore
[Verse 2]
Friends’ faces
Taped up on my wall
I talk to 'em when it’s 3 AM
Say their names so I don’t dissolve
Scroll feeds
See a kid in a cap and gown
I see uniforms and missing calls
See the moment we all hit the ground
[Chorus]
I'm still battling demons after war
Kickin' down doors in my head, on the floor
Every loud sound feels like before
And I can't tell the past from my bedroom door
I'm still battling demons after war
All these names that my heart can't ignore
If I make it through tonight, through this storm
Will I ever feel normal anymore
[Bridge]
I got scars I can't show
I got jokes so you won't know
I got "I'm good, bro" on repeat (on repeat)
But I'm drowning underneath
So if you see me fade out
Pull me back, drag me out
'Cause some nights I can't fight
And I don't wanna tap out tonight (yeah)
[Chorus]
I'm still battling demons after war
Kickin' down doors in my head, on the floor
Every loud sound feels like before
And I can't tell the past from my bedroom door
I'm still battling demons after war
All these names that my heart can't ignore
If I make it through tonight, through this storm
Maybe I can be more than this war
[Outro]
Just a heartbeat
Not a headline
Just a person
Tryna survive the next night