Your Villain

Yeah…

Another night arguing with the echo in my skull

Tryna love somebody I don’t even like

That’s the sick part…

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Why does love feel like a sentence, not a gift?

Like I gotta amputate pieces of myself just to fit

I bend, I break, I fake a smile, call it compromise

But every time I do, another part of me just dies

I’m swiping through replacements like I’m numb to the bone

Looking for a soulmate in a world that feels loaned

I don’t hate you, I hate who I become

When I start shrinking just to keep someone

Tell me why I’m turning my love into hate

Is a shattered heart really gonna be my fate?

I just want a love that’s worth living for

But I’m losing myself, it’s hard to ignore

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Why does love cost my sanity?

Why do I search for it in a broken melody?

Your song sounds so sweet and pure

But it’s a siren that I can’t ignore

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Oh, I’d burn down the world if you asked me to

I’d light the match, watch the sky turn blue

But if you wrong me, I’ll watch it burn

And burn you too, yeah, I’ll burn you too

I gave you pieces I can’t replace

Now love’s got a knife with my name engraved

If I’m the villain in your point of view

Then I’ll wear the crown if that’s what I gotta do

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I’m tired of dating like it’s psychological war

Where the prize is trauma and the scars are décor

Everybody’s “healing,” but they bleed on you

Then act surprised when you’re leaking too

You say “open up,” then flinch when I do

Say you want honesty, just not the truth

So I bottle it back, let it ferment

Till love turns toxic, then you call me resentful

You fell in love with the version of me

That was starving for approval and afraid to leave

Now I’m eating my words with revenge on my breath

Trying not to confuse self-respect with death

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Why does love cost my sanity?

Why do I chase it like it’s gravity?

Your voice sounds holy, soft and sure

But it’s a siren that I can’t ignore

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Oh, I’d burn down the world if you asked me to

I’d torch my morals just to stand by you

But if you wrong me, I’ll watch it burn

No tears left, just lessons learned

I tried to be good, tried to be safe

Now I’m carving my heart out of concrete and rage

If being the villain is what it takes

Then paint me black, let the hero break

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I don’t wanna hate you, I just wanna feel whole

I don’t wanna love you if it costs my soul

If revenge is the language my pain understands

Then maybe being feared beats being damned

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I stopped begging for love like it’s oxygen

Started guarding my heart like it’s contraband

If you wanted a monster, congratulations

You trained me through neglect and expectations

I won’t burn the world for your validation

But I’ll let it burn if it stands in my way

I’d rather be hated and know who I am

Than loved for a lie