Fake Smiles

Yeah... Late nights, no sleep... Too many thoughts in my head... But nobody sees it...

I got pain in my chest and a smile on my face

Tryna keep in together but I'm losin' the race

Everybody say "you good?" and I just sy "yeah"

But deep down inside man I'm fightin' with fear

Got stress in my brain every day every night

Too young for this pressure but I still gotta fight

People walk past me, they don't notice the scars

I be Feelin' so alone while surrounded by stars

And heartbreak changed me, now I don't feel the same

Used to trust easy now I'm numb to the pain

Every text left open got me feelin' replaced

Tryna act all strong but the tears leave stains

I been lookin' in the mirror like "who am I now?"

Tryna scream for help but I don't know how

Everybody got opinions but nobody knows

How it feels when your heart and your mind both cold

I just wanna feel okay again

Tired of the dark when the day begins

Carryin' this weight like it never ends

Need a little light, need a real friend

And maybe one day I'll heal for real

Maybe these wounds won't hurt this bad still

Till I write these words I feel

Hopin' somebody hears me

Lonely conversations whit the walls in my room

Head full of storms like I'm stuck in monsoon

Mama ask me why I'm awake so late

I just shrug my shoulders say "I'm fine, it's okay"

But it's not though

I got thoughts movin' fast on the dark road

Tryna find comfort while my heart broke

Every fake smile feelin' hollow

And I hate when I get rude sometimes

Got emotions too big and confused mind

I don't wanna hurt people close to me

But pain changes how a person speaks

Still I got hope buried deep inside

Even broken hearts still beat sometimes

Even dark nights gotta see sunrise

Even lost souls still need soft lights

I just wanna feel okay again

Tired of the dark when they day begins

Carryin' this weight like it never ends

Need a little light, need a real friend

And maybe one day I'll heal for real

Maybe these wounds won't hurt so bad still

Till then I write these words I feel

Hopin' somebody hears me

So if you feel broken, just know I do too

You don't gotta hide every scar you move through

One day we'll look back at the pain we survived

And realize we were stronger the whole time...

Yeah... We still here... And that means something...