[bass drums echo]
Yeah…
Headset on…
World off…
Headset off…
Demons talk…
Headset on, yeah, I’m loading the game,
Only place in the world where I’m free from the pain.
Missus by my side, yeah, she keeps man sane,
But my mind’s still dark when I’m back in the rain.
Even in a room full of people I’m lone,
Everybody talks but I’m still on my own.
Used to be colder on the streets down South,
Made a name for myself that I can’t talk about.
Money came quick but peace never stayed,
Couldn’t wash these thoughts no matter what I made.
Heart got broke, now the nights feel long,
Trying to smile but it all feels wrong.
Bro praying to God, “Please save me… please save me…”
Silence echoed,
Nothing came lately,
Stopped believing,
Still searching daily,
Maybe there’s a purpose,
Maybe it will save me.
Getting drunk on the weekend,
Numbs the pain for a period of time,
Life’s not so lame…
Till Monday arrives and I’m losing my mind.
Controller in my hand,
Headset on tight,
For a couple hours…
Everything’s alright.
But when that console shuts down,
Them thoughts come back.
No respawn in life…
Just trying to stay on track.
Thought alcohol could fix it all,
But the bottle only made me fall.
Every weekend chasing another face,
Just looking for warmth, never finding my place.
Pints on the table,
New gyal in sight,
Trying to outrun what keeps me up at night.
Now I’m getting older,
Starting to see,
Life’s way too short
To keep running from me.
Still don’t know
What waits above,
Don’t call it God…
Just something greater than us.
So I’m taking one step,
Then another again,
Trying to make peace
With the mess in my head.
Bro praying to God… “Please save me… please save me…”
Silence echoed, Nothing came lately…
Stopped believing,
Still searching daily,
Maybe there’s a purpose,
Maybe it will save me,
Getting drunk on the weekend,
Numbs the pain for a period of time,
Life’s not so lame…
Till Monday arrives and I’m losing my mind.
Controller in my hand,
Headset on tight,
For a couple hours…
Everything’s alright.
But when that console shuts down,
Them thoughts come back.
No respawn in life…
Just trying to stay on track.
Bridge (Vocalising)
Ooooh…
Yeah-yeah…
Ooooh…
Outro
Day by day, I’m finding my peace,
Sun on my face, all the pressure decreased.
Trying my best, no time to pretend,
One more chapter, this ain’t the end.
Heart’s content, I ain’t chasing the hype,
Just trying to build me a meaningful life.
Settling down, got love by my side,
Maybe my wife when the timing is right.
No more drowning the pain in a pint,
Now I’m focused, my future’s in sight.
Still got demons, but they don’t decide…
I’m still here… and I’m still alive.
J9 is the name, pain is the story
But life’s getting better, thank fuck I ain’t no Tory.
Had my ups and downs, but we’re getting through life,
I’d rather be holding a controller than a sharp silver knife.
Yh. J9, J9
GONE
[end]
