Strong Will

Here i am again its a rock and a hard place. Another punk cop trying to pin me on a court case.

But my spirits strong well in certain ways.

I can face any evil and i welcome in the end of days.

But when it comes to all these women my hearts destined to collapse.

I dont fall out of love quick but do fall in it fast.

I been riding with my struggle

Ill be damned if ill last.

I can speak my feelings but only to myself.

So i say fuck my feelings and just keep on a shelf.

Maybe address it in the future once big dad secures his wealth.

See when i become a shadow and i switch my mode to stealth.

" Hes doing it, hes crazy." "I think he lost his mind" everyone has opinions and they worsen over time.

So me i face these demons and let them come and play. Cause in the end i know my roll no matter what they say.

When i say that your special or ever call you mine.

Know that fucking statement goes on through the hands of time.

On through eternity into the other side.

Ain't gonna be a victim, shit imma kill for mine.

Here i am again its a rock and a hard place. Another punk cop trying to pin me on a court case.

But my spirits strong well in certain

This is a darkness maybe A generational curse.

Why does it pour when it rains if water lessens its worth.

I have a funnny way when i do things that cause me hurt.

I got my prized possesions but in the end what are they worth.

been chasing the beams of light

Easier to find in the blanket of night

That or in the void in the back of my mind.

I know what i believe and address how i feel

But to you it wasn't good enough its like you thought i wasn't real.

well baby i aint superman i aint made out of steel.

And its ok if we are different, it just changes the deal.

Im a man bound by sin, in this place we living in

On a Destruction path to glory, is it possible to win.

Probabally with prayer, and little less sin.

You know my motivations. and why i get it in.

I cant keep playing games like i already loss my kids.

When your world goes away its hard to start again.

Its hard to trust a soul or even open up your heart.

Betrayal is a choice and it ripped my mind apart.

Why am i the one that people use my words to grow.

Yet when i speak them to myself it really doesn't show.

I hate this place i hate this life.

yet love my kids and wanna try.

Fuck it all id rather die.

No i want to stay and fight. Yeah thats it, yeah fucking right.

I stay because i am not week.

i fight it all including sleep. everyday is on repeat.

I try, i do hell i'd love my children back

Yet still i geek and stay off track.

I go hard im on the map. Reluctance creeps terror snaps.

Im the pain they feel when the world leaves them alone in their head. Yet im the same motivation they use to get up outta bed. So am i a monster or an angel instead. Am i a lost cause or am i better off dead?

I check with my bag and its already been said. Its all part of the madness the reasons i see red. Manifest believe change my standings with the dead.