New Year, Don’t Kill Me

[Verse 1]
Midnight creeping up my phone
Black mascara
Bedroom throne
Calendar of tiny deaths
Counting down in shallow breaths
Burnt out candles on my floor
Every wish just hurt some more
Twelve months carved into my skin
I’m so tired of this version
[Chorus]
New year
Don’t kill me
I am begging on my knees
Take these ghosts that live inside me
Let me finally fucking breathe
New year
Don’t kill me
Put a heartbeat in my chest
If there’s anything like mercy
Let me feel a little less
[Verse 2]
Every firework feels fake
Colored smoke above my ache
People kissing
Drinking shine
I’m just tracing every line
Of all the nights I didn’t sleep
All the secrets I still keep
If tomorrow finds me here
Teach me how to leave this fear
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
If you’re out there
Listening
To this cracked voice
Shivering
Give me one sign
In the dark
One soft place
For this heart
I don’t need a perfect sky
Just one reason not to die
Just one promise you can keep
One small light that’s meant for me (me…)
[Chorus]

pop, Dark electro-pop with female vocals, pulsing sidechain bass and glassy synth plucks in the verses. Sparse, intimate first verse with close-mic whisper layers, then the chorus explodes with wide pads, distorted bass swells, and reverb-soaked claps. Emo edge in the topline, doubled and pitch-shifted harmonies on key phrases. Final chorus adds octave vocal, airy ad-libs, and a subtle riser for cathartic lift., emo, electro