[Verse 1]
Curtains closed
Daylight scratching at the window
Phone on silent
I can feel it buzzing in my bones
Every smile on the screen
Feels like teeth
Feels like they're in on the joke
Heart rate sprinting
But my feet stay welded to the floorboards
Froze
[Pre-Chorus]
Yeah
I built these four walls
Called them "safe
" called it "home"
But the dark keeps talking
When I'm finally alone
[Chorus]
Scared to go outside
'Cause all those faces
They burn my eyes
I feel better in the dark
'Til the shadows start to crawl inside
Whispers in my head again
Saying "you ain't ever gonna win"
I lock the world out
Try to keep it all in
But the whispers and the shadows
Creep in under my skin
[Verse 2]
Sink in the mattress
Ceiling fan spinning like a carousel
Every thought
Every flashback
Is a movie that I know too well
Tell myself "breathe"
But my lungs keep filling up with doubt
I am my own prison
And the guard that never lets me out
[Pre-Chorus]
Yeah
I swipe through their lives
Filter-perfect
Plastic grins
But my hands start shaking
So I shut it all down again
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
[low vocal register]
I don't wanna be this ghost in my bedroom
Pacing in circles
Tracing old wounds
If I open that door
Will it kill me
Or finally thrill me? (thrill me, thrill me)
[spoken
Half-rapped]
Is it safer in the silence
Or buried by the noise?
Am I hiding from the world
Or just afraid of my own voice?
[crescendo]
If the dark is my armor
Why's it cutting like glass?
If I'm running from the future
Why's it dragging up the past?
[screamed vocals]
Get out
Get out of my head
[Chorus]