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I don’t want to lie to myself it’s so much pain

Chained by my incompetence

Lies beyond thee obvious

Snarls and bellows from the deep

Screaming chaos of being terminally unique

I hate how when you wake up you fall right back to sleep

Help, this isn’t how it’s supposed to be

Run , please run away from me

Love doesn’t reside here

It doesn’t skip a beat

I try

You’ll flee

I hate being me.

You say you love me but how can you love a ghost a host to a suicidal disoriented mess who in retrospect can’t draw a line where the brain in the heart intersect my love knows no bounds that’s why all my inhibitions drop when you come around please tell me you’re different cause half the time I’m in different just existing trying to figure out my cosmic position while dealing with dissipation of my disposition you said you’ll stay, but I swear every person I’ve ever loved has walked away. There’s so much going on inside my brain often times it feels like a cage. God tells me to trust away, but I can feel the turn of every page so if I scare you run away is the only way I know how to love is to feel pain if you make your choice I’ll fade away. I still love you anyway.

So burnt and incomplete