If my ego was still with me,
I would hide my feelings and be embarrassed to tell
but it's not,
you've seen me in my rawness, my ego's definitely dead.
I question myself to the validity of how I feel
and can only conclude that for some unexpected reason you needed me, as much as I need you.
If you think I can handle being this way,
I can't,
I really wish, I had some say,
I'm rendered helpless,
No, if I was truthful,
no I'm not ok.
I'll be going to jail soon
So my reality I have to face
Just remember this please
That I get stuck in my thoughts and even when I know I'm right, I question why I've been punished this way.
That everyone I love, gets taken away.
You could think I'm scared
And don't have the guts
That's far from the truth
I've got nothing to lose
Different people bring out a different me,
The Lou you've met, is the best version of me ever.
A bond so real
Impossible to sever
If my ego was still with me,
I would hide my feelings and be embarrassed to tell
but it's not,
you've seen me in my rawness, my ego's definitely dead.
I question myself to the validity of how I feel
and can only conclude that for some unexpected reason you needed me, as much as I need you.
How do I tell you,
How I truly feel about you, without breaking down into an emotional mess and know, you'll take it the way I intend it. I dont
And that's ok.
How do I tell you,
Without saying the words, that I get and I see you, for who you are, in its entirety and im proud to call you my best friend, after only knowing you a short while.
I've tried.
If my ego was still with me,
I would hide my feelings and be embarrassed to tell
but it's not,
If you think I can handle being this way,
I can't,
I really wish, I had some say,
I'm rendered helpless,
No, if I was truthful,
no I'm not ok.
How do I tell you,
That I've known my place, in your life from the first time we met, and how we met, would never be a point of judgement, like you think it would.
I'd never
How do I tell you,
That the way I love you is more than I ever expected it to be and me not fighting for you is not because I love you any less, but my want for you to fulfil your soul journey in the way you want and deserve to, with a clear heart, conscience and mind. Not manipulated by circumstance or opportunity.
I dont.
If my ego was still with me,
I would hide my feelings and be embarrassed to tell
but it's not,
If you think I can handle being this way,
I can't,
How do I tell you,
That seeing you at your most vulnerable only made me realise that we were both at the same place, and everything I was giving and worried about was being given straight back
This is how I tell you.
I don't....
Cause I just realised you already know
