Pain

0:00–0:12 — Intro 0:12 Started young, life hit hard, everything felt outta place, 0:17 Grew up fast, saw the struggle sittin’ heavy on her face. 0:22 Momma curlin’ up at night, tryna sleep through all the pain, 0:27 Doctors sayin’ she was fine — but they ain’t hear her soul explain. 0:33 They gave pills instead of answers, gave excuses instead of truth, 0:38 By the time they figured out the cause, they stole her youth. 0:43 But she still smiled for the family, still tried to make it right, 0:48 Gave her all to everybody, even when she lost the fight. 0:54 Then the words came like a blade — “Say your final goodbyes,” 0:59 Watched her fade away while holdin’ tears behind my eyes. 1:04 All them tubes around her body, man, that image never leaves, 1:09 That’s the woman who carried me, who taught me how to breathe. 1:10 I been carryin’ all this weight, but I don’t ever make a sound, 1:15 Tryna be the one who stands, even when I’m breakin’ down. 1:20 Lost the woman who raised me, now I’m tryna raise my own, 1:25 But the hurt don’t leave — it just hides deep in the bones. 1:30 Yeah, the hurt don’t leave… it just hides deep in the bones. 1:35 I wish I was a better son — that thought hits me every night, 1:40 Wish I told her I was sorry, wish I held her extra tight. 1:45 But I tried, yeah, I tried, even when life felt like a war, 1:50 Still feels like I could’ve done more… always feels like more. 1:56 Now it’s me and my brothers, and we ain’t been the same, 2:01 Conversations feel different, even laughin’ ain’t the same. 2:06 Momma was the glue, the heartbeat, the center of the room, 2:11 Now we walk around her absence like a shadow we assume. 2:17 Got kids of my own now, wish she could’ve seen their eyes, 2:22 Wish she could’ve held them close, would’ve loved ’em ’til she cried. 2:27 Now I’m daddy, tryna stand tall, tryna give them what they need, 2:32 But inside I’m cracked open, tryna find a way to bleed. 2:30 I been carryin’ all this weight, but I don’t ever make a sound, 2:35 Tryna be the one who stands, even when I’m breakin’ down. 2:40 Lost the woman who raised me, now I’m tryna raise my own, 2:45 But the hurt don’t leave — it just hides deep in the bones. 2:50 Yeah, the hurt don’t leave… it just hides deep in the bones.