It’s me against me

Verse 1

I’m scared of the dark, not the lack of the light

It’s the things that appear when I close my eyes

Dread in the morning, the day feels too heavy

Like waking up costs more than I’m ready

I swear I’m not broken, I’m just overstimmed

Too many thoughts trying to move me at once

I know there’s a good life I’m standing inside

But my mind builds a storm when the sun’s outside

Pre-Chorus

I tell myself, breathe, you’ve been here before

But the fear says, what if you don’t make it back this time?

Chorus

It’s me against me when the room gets quiet

When the noise in my head turns into a riot

I don’t want to be saved, I just want to be seen

Without feeling like I’m someone’s burden to keep

I know I’m lucky, I know I’m blessed

But the bad feels final when it crawls in my chest

I’m optimistic, still learning to stay

When it’s me against me at the end of the day

Verse 2

I miss being numb, I won’t lie about that

Not the pain, just the silence it gave me back

I don’t want the scars, I don’t want the past

I just wanted a moment where the hurting would pass

I hate being alone, but I overthink crowds

I need reassurance but I don’t say it out loud

They can tell something’s wrong by the look on my face

But the words fall apart before they escape

Pre-Chorus

I don’t want to block love, I just don’t want to beg

I don’t want to be heavy in someone else’s head

Chorus

It’s me against me when the night comes fast

When every bad moment feels built to last

I see the beauty, I know it’s a gift

Just hard to remember when the switch gets flipped

I’m rich in gratitude, rich in peace

Until my mind turns quiet into an enemy

I want them to care, I just don’t want to be

The reason someone sighs when they hear from me

Bridge

Growing old is a privilege, I know that’s true

My worst days are someone else’s dream come true

I don’t forget it, I carry it deep

But knowing I’m thankful doesn’t stop the grief

And when it gets bad, it lies and it says

“This is the part where you don’t come back again”

But I’ve come back before, even bruised and unsure

Still standing here, still wanting more

Final Chorus

It’s me against me, but I’m still here

Still choosing tomorrow even soaked in fear

I don’t need fixing, I need some time

To learn how to sit with this restless mind

If you hear this song and you hear yourself too

Know I’m fighting quietly right next to you

I’m not giving up, even when I can’t see

Past the nights where it’s me against me

Outro

If I stay long enough, the feeling moves on

It always does, even when it feels wrong

So I’ll hold on to hope with shaking hands

I’m still here… and that has to stand