Fuaa

On the surface, you may not tell

That deep inside, I'm still unwell

For you I'll paint a happy face

But Even that feels out of place

Each day I wake, I play my part,

A hollow shell, an empty heart.

The words I speak, rehearsed, refined,

A fragile mask I'll hide behind

Eyes red and tired where shadows hide

Once shone bright now dim inside

I used to soar on hopeful wings

consumed again with my old sins

The clock hands turn, the days erase,

They merge together, when in my haze .

My better self left far behind

My habits now consume my mind

But now I'm brave,

I feel alive

I'm past the worst

I will survive

I wear old armour

With all the scars

But they remind me

I've got so far